Shattered Thoughts
Yes I know I should be sleeping. Yet I can't sleep for some strange reason even though I'm exhausted. I'm over at Liz's and everyone is nocturnal except for me alas, which makes it hard to sleep. Maybe if Liz would curl up next to me, and for two seconds I could pretend she's mine and then I could probably sleep. I don't have one real thing to call mine. Alvaro is sleeping right now next to claire. I wonder if she knows I was sleeping there two nights in a row. She'll never know he'll never tell her I even exist. It doesn't matter that his ex-girlfriend of two plus years, is his best friend. He'll just hide me away like he always does. Because yes I am something to be ashamed of. I don't know what the hell I've been doing. Today I have to find pot. I don't know if that will happen or not. But is should I will fall alseep probably as soon as I walk through his door. I usually would care but he doesn't so why should I? Because I do! Unfortuantely I'm the only one.