Ahhh, let me get this straight. You slept with Nikki, but now you hate her. You slept with Rose, and now you hate her too. Maybe stop sleeping with your friends? Just a suggestion.

Your boyfriend
http://www.geocities.com/asualv/journal2k4.html,
whose page I read for entertainment value, envies several playas, presumably meaning player, or play-ah. Funny that you are the only girlfriend he has ever had in his 30 some-odd years. Maybe the reason is that he is spelling the word wrong. Doesn't playa mean beach in Spanish (Juan and Maria vamos a la playa)? Perhaps you have fallen in love with a beach?

I'm just sayin' he's been lucky to have a girlfriend. But the only way he'll appreciate you, sadly, is if you find someone else and get over this loser. Then, he'll remember you fondly, and perhaps write about it in his journal. That's the best it will get with him. Tell me I don't know, except that I do. This type will only love what he cannot have. He still thinks dating a supermodel is possible. He'll never love you, but he isn't worth all this pain. Sorry, its true.

bill