unrelenting sadness
my best friend is in californnia and shes hurting really bad and theres nothing i can do because im stuck here in this shity city. how can i enjoy myself when my other half is in so much pain? my mother was in the ER last night until 1:30 AM. i had to drive her there but i had to leave the hospital because i couldnt handle it .. i freaked out i couldnt do anything but cry. people die in hospitals. thats all theyre known for. i also had a breakdown at school . of all places. i dont even know why it happend i got this tight feeling in my chest and this overwhelming sadness and i just had to cry.