Confessions/Stuff
I`ve been trying to update for past 20 mins but Torrian kept calling..1st he calls and goes "wait, lemme call you back" I was like "Okay??" so I hung up and attemped to get back here but mofo decides to call again ..he was like "I got all your phone messages" I didnt leave any messages execpt one last week, then he goes "You called me like 5 times durning the week, sorry I didnt call back I just didnt feel like talkin" actually I called him 3 times but that was more then enough..then he says "You wanted to talk about anything?" I was like "No not anything inparticlar" he was like "Well, I`ll call you when I get home" I was like "Yeah" and hung up. So yea... I feel like hes mad at me or he doesnt want me to call him anymore..what you think? cuz im kinda gettin that vibe from the brotha..but anyway! I was thinkin about Demetri aka "D"..Torrian`s brother..I MIGHT be falling for him..I dont kno..ever since Tori started acting the way hes been acting and his girlfriend he has..even tho I havent seen them together..I`ve gotten closer to D..hes really cool..5'8..he looks just like Tori but hes a freshmen..I kno right? YOUNG!..but that doesnt bother me..im not sure if I should be dating a friend of mine brother especially if im inbetween feelings with that friend..but im thinkin like..im single..I can be with whoever wants to be with me right? I dont kno what to think or do at this point. I wish GOD would give a sista a sign..or help me out here cuz yea im outta ideas and answers..I have no where to turn!! HELP!!!
SURVEY- stole it from anotha journal lol
The Perfect Guy
1. hair color - Dark Brown
2. eye color - hazel or brown
3. height - he has to be taller than me
4. six pack - toned body would be good enough
5. long or short hair - fade( hair cut) or a small afro..in braids..non nappy lol
6. glasses - if it looks good on him
7. piercings - ears
8. scars - thats gonna be a given but not all over
9. eyebrows - no unibrows
10. big butt or little- big ass!..something to grab on :]
11. chest hair - no
12. buff or skinny- skinny or alittle buff..not too big
13. straight teeth, gap, or braces - straight
14. funny or serious- serious at the right things and time..gotta have a sense of humor
15. party or stay at home- both
16. should he cook or bake- if he can do both then knock yourself out!
17. should he have a best friend - yea of course
18. should he have a lotta girlfriends - no..he can have friends that are girls but not too many!
19. outgoing or shy - shy about certain things but mostly outgoing
20. sarcastic or sincere - alittle bit of both..cuz I can be sarcastic alot
21. should he love his mother? - yes
22. should he watch chick flicks? - lol with me, i like chick flicks
23. would he be a smoker? - NO CRACKHEADS PLEASE! thank you
24. would he drink? - yea, on occasions
25. would he swear? - everyone does, it why not him?
26. would he play with your hair?- yes! that feels soo good
27. one or more girls at a time - just me or his moms or sisters if he has any
28. would he pay for dates? - if he wants to sure..or we can go 50/50
29.does he kiss on the first date?- yea
30. where would you go to dinner? - where ever we want
31. would he bring you flowers?- that would be sweet
32. would he lay under the stars with you?- yes
33. would he write poetry about you? - if thats his thing or he can do something else
34. would he call you hunny, sweetie, or baby? - yes..I would call him all that
35. would he hang out with you and YOUR friends? - occasionaly
36. would you hang out with him and his friends? occasionaly
37. will he walk you to the door at the end? - yes, I even might invite him in
38. holding hands - yea
39. soccer - yea? lol
40. baseball - no
41. basketball - if he did it wouldn't bother me...
42. football - if he did it woulden't bother me...
43. water - yea
44. surf - yea...if hes good at it..I want him to teach me
45. skateboard- yea
46. snowboard- yea
47. sing - oh yes..cuz I love singing too
48. play guitar - yea!!
49. play piano - yea..if hes really good at it..he could teach me
50. play drums- yes
51. clean his room - when it needs to be cleaned..not a neat freak
52. paint, draw, sculpt - um no
53. writes his own music - yea
54. use the word dude - lmao yes..cuz I used the word "dude"
55. use the word tight - yea but no "shawty" or "cuz"
56. would he watch the sun rise with you - yea
57. what kind of car does he drive- probably a truck or sports car..whatever he likes
58. how old is he - my age-20
59. what would his name be - something thats easy to spell and not something ill forget