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So..... Have an appointment in a few weeks to discuss a septoplasty surgery (to fix a deviated septum) My nose was broken when i was young, which further exacerbated the problem, although i have had the deviation and smaller than normal nasal passages since birth. Breathing through my nose has always been a bit laborious and unless i am having an especially congestion-free day, i can only do so from my right nostril. It also impedes my sense of smell quite a bit, in addition to my already fucked up sinuses due to past drug use. My nose will more than likely end up looking a bit different than it does now, which kind of sucks because it's one of the few physical features i actually like, but it's gotta be done. It also has a hand in compromising my energy level and endurance a bit as well, which makes sense since good respiration is kind of essential to overall physical function and breathing through the mouth too much, ironically enough, is actually rather unhealthy in a number of surprising ways. Haha, now having that out of the way, no smoking lectures please. I'm sure i'll get my ass reamed enough by the Otolaryngologist for it. Oh, and i've been informed by the ENT that i can probably expect a moderate-or-more change in my voice too, as he seems to think from listening to me that the way it currently sounds is largely induced by my nose problems. It will more than likely be much deeper (and of course much less nasally) than it is now. Which is great news -- I have always HATED my voice. Ok, moving on.......
I've been on a serious Cure kick lately. They're nearly the only thing i have listened to in more than a month. I've got all the albums on my computer and they've been getting quite a work out. Seriously, The Cure is the best band to ever exist. They resonate with me for some reason in a way that i can't even describe. Been listening to them for [approximately] nineteen years and not once have i ever gotten sick of it or even excluded them from my regular rotation of music. I may have gone perhaps a month or two of my life since 1989 without listening to them, but thats it. Love that band to death!! Ok... next topic.....
Have class this morning, so i wish i could have gotten a bit more sleep, but i have been awake since 2:30 am (went to sleep around 10:00 pm) I guess my body just didnt want to sleep anymore. I doubt it will ever conform to a day schedule without a rather vicious fight. I still really love being nocturnal. It's peaceful, quiet, comforting, and just feels more natural to me in general. I doubt i'll ever give it up. Luckily, it's not so difficult to live life that way. You can pretty much finagle your way around anything these days without being compromised or neglectful of things. I'm a guest in someone's house right now so i'm not gonna sleep all day, but as soon as i get my own place again, i am probably not gonna bother being awake during the day unless i have to be. Thank the gods for internet, 3rd shifts, and night school! thats all i have to say, haha :)