just an update
Yeah so things are "ok" I guess. There isnt really a way to describe the state I am in right now. Its not a horrible one but its not a great one either. People have been bringing up the way I look lately and alot too! I have no idea why. Like Ive just been having random people coming up to me and like omg you're so beautiful.. Im just like no im not but thanx. ya know? Then omg in wellness we were practicing CPR and we were all just chillin and I was laying on the mat cause I was the person they practiced on and all of a sudden out of the blue my ex b/f goes "Hannah do you still think you're fat?" Im like I dont wanna talk about it..and he was like "You're so skinny like a stick I dunno what fat you have" I just ignored it and started talking to my friends. Then another time recently I was talking to one of my friends and she was like yeah "Im sick of this diet im on and blah blah blah" she's chunky so I was like "have you tried a liquid diet?" she's like "omg you're freaking crazy im gonna check you into and anorexia clinic" I just started laughing with her and smiling along. Its so weird ive been getting told im really pretty and skinny and stuff I dunno I guess im doing something right. But lately ive been getting really bad migrains and dizzy spells.. I dunno the only thing the seems to help is to eat something or to go to sleep but I cant exactly go to sleep in school... So does anyone have a quick remedy for that? I dunno maybe im just stupid.. but omg I am so sad... im a size 16 in abercrombie(kids) and im a 1 in hollister! Hollister is semi good I guess but 16 in kids is deffintly not! I use to be a 12/14 I have no clue what happened! ugggh! oh well I guess im just going to have to get stricter on what food I do consume... omg I really wish I could throw up right about now... stupid esphogus!