im in a state of being where all i do is wonder... about you

[beautifyme]

im here. its strange.
i feel misplaced.
its strange to be around the people who ive grown up with,
shared so much with,
share blood with... again. uncommon, i know.
i feel as if i was, in a way, sent to be a didactic figure
so that they can learn what went wrong with everything
between us... because i understand myself better now than they think i do.

on different note, i dont know what to be for halloween.
what is everybody being??? night or day, day or night?
i dont know how im dressing, but i know what im doing.
exxxxxxxxxcited.

p.s. happy one day and a few hours early birthday farrah and eric!