*Singing Santas*
Hiya...
School (the part I was actually at) was boring and angering. Math was stupid, i hate math in general, none of it makes ANY sence to me. Its just a bunch of incoherant marking on a piece of valuable paper...blah... Chours is usually my favorite class, but Donavon is stressed b/c its like 2 days before the concert and we suck.. like massivly suck! So shes a rubber band waiting to snap back at any one who pulls her to far. So yeah.. that was an unpleasant expericance. Then I had American history.. like 5 mins of it, then we got called to leave for the singing santas field trip. We were going to St. Charles hospital so we can sing to the disabled children. Looking at all the kids made me so sad. I hated it, but I loved being there. I loved being there becasue I knew that us standing up there in front of them dancing and singing, made them so happy. I don't know why, but I really wanted to cry. I couldn't of course... I'd feel terrible. During the break between the 2 shows, when we weren't stuffing our faces in room 3,we we allowed to visit the children. They were soo adorable. One of the boys kissed one of the girl singing santas hand. It was the sweetest thing ever. I wanted to take them all home with me. One of them got all excited because I told them my name was Regina, and they had a Regina in their calss. I got to sing "lean on me" but that song is soo low, and difficult for me to sing, but I sung "Silent Night", "Holly Jolly Christmas" "Jingle Bell Rock" and "santa cupid" quite well. Oh, I found out today that my part in Damn Yankees is considered a proncipal. That was exciting.
Wow, last night I talked to Wes for the first time in a while. I don't know what it is about him, or what he does to me, but everytime I talk to him, I manage to fall back in love with him. He's just so amazing to me. Kaytee was playing match-maker last night (a loseing badly,I may add) He said his life was too complicated to have a 'normal' realtionship at this time and Kaytee told him if I wanted normal I wouldn't love him. Which is true. Wes is the epitome of abnormal. The guy named his car Lestat, and clams it to have a man-eatting clown living in the trunk. I don't what it is about him that make it 'difficult to have a normal relationship'. He won't tell me, or actually underestimates my intelligence by telling me I wouldn't understand, or worse he tells me I'm not "emotionally stable" enough to handle it. He told Kaytee he was done with the girlfriend thing. I wonder serisouly, if he's still in love with Jessica. I hope not. he can't be. He needs to get on with life. Boys make me so depressed. The ones I love always have a pining for another. Fucking Wesley! Why do I have to fucking love him, I think I'm over him and then I fall into his blissful trance, which sends me deep into depression knowing I want him and he dosn't want me. Whats wrong with me....
<3 GiNa
...Maybe someday you'll really get to know me...
School (the part I was actually at) was boring and angering. Math was stupid, i hate math in general, none of it makes ANY sence to me. Its just a bunch of incoherant marking on a piece of valuable paper...blah... Chours is usually my favorite class, but Donavon is stressed b/c its like 2 days before the concert and we suck.. like massivly suck! So shes a rubber band waiting to snap back at any one who pulls her to far. So yeah.. that was an unpleasant expericance. Then I had American history.. like 5 mins of it, then we got called to leave for the singing santas field trip. We were going to St. Charles hospital so we can sing to the disabled children. Looking at all the kids made me so sad. I hated it, but I loved being there. I loved being there becasue I knew that us standing up there in front of them dancing and singing, made them so happy. I don't know why, but I really wanted to cry. I couldn't of course... I'd feel terrible. During the break between the 2 shows, when we weren't stuffing our faces in room 3,we we allowed to visit the children. They were soo adorable. One of the boys kissed one of the girl singing santas hand. It was the sweetest thing ever. I wanted to take them all home with me. One of them got all excited because I told them my name was Regina, and they had a Regina in their calss. I got to sing "lean on me" but that song is soo low, and difficult for me to sing, but I sung "Silent Night", "Holly Jolly Christmas" "Jingle Bell Rock" and "santa cupid" quite well. Oh, I found out today that my part in Damn Yankees is considered a proncipal. That was exciting.
Wow, last night I talked to Wes for the first time in a while. I don't know what it is about him, or what he does to me, but everytime I talk to him, I manage to fall back in love with him. He's just so amazing to me. Kaytee was playing match-maker last night (a loseing badly,I may add) He said his life was too complicated to have a 'normal' realtionship at this time and Kaytee told him if I wanted normal I wouldn't love him. Which is true. Wes is the epitome of abnormal. The guy named his car Lestat, and clams it to have a man-eatting clown living in the trunk. I don't what it is about him that make it 'difficult to have a normal relationship'. He won't tell me, or actually underestimates my intelligence by telling me I wouldn't understand, or worse he tells me I'm not "emotionally stable" enough to handle it. He told Kaytee he was done with the girlfriend thing. I wonder serisouly, if he's still in love with Jessica. I hope not. he can't be. He needs to get on with life. Boys make me so depressed. The ones I love always have a pining for another. Fucking Wesley! Why do I have to fucking love him, I think I'm over him and then I fall into his blissful trance, which sends me deep into depression knowing I want him and he dosn't want me. Whats wrong with me....
<3 GiNa
...Maybe someday you'll really get to know me...