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Wow. So much has happened since my last entry.
Travis- I don't even know what to say. Death doesnt end love. I miss him so much. I still can't believe that he is gone. With everything going wrong in my life he is the only person I would ever turn to and trust and confide in. and he is the only person who could make me feel better. I love him. I want everyone to know that. It's so hard to live without him and sometimes I dont even want to.
I'm not sure why god does what he does and sometimes I wonder if he is even really there. It's like everytime something okay happens everything just turns to shit again. My entire life has been turned upside down in two weeks.
My boyfriend passed away.
I got fired from my job.
Someone called my parents and told on me.
I failed three finals.
3 of my friends have been expelled.
The school has searched my backpack.
My parents give me pee tests.
The school called my house to tell my parents all my friends are getting busted and that I hang out with the wrong crowd.
All my friends are either, in jail, dead, or in rehab.
I dont know what the fuck to do.
I'm not looking for people to feel sorry for me. I'm just looking for someone to fucking understand that everything is not okay and it doesnt have to be all the time. Problem is it never is. Nothing is going right in my life. nothing. everything is a peice of shit. I have nothing. No one. Going No where with my life. I cant believe I'm typing this shit. Admiting it the world that I am un-fucking-stable. But at this point in time, who the fuck cares. Everyone in this world is so god damn fake its about time someone got real.
For those of you at Travis's service, I hope you know I meant what I said.
Travis- I don't even know what to say. Death doesnt end love. I miss him so much. I still can't believe that he is gone. With everything going wrong in my life he is the only person I would ever turn to and trust and confide in. and he is the only person who could make me feel better. I love him. I want everyone to know that. It's so hard to live without him and sometimes I dont even want to.
I'm not sure why god does what he does and sometimes I wonder if he is even really there. It's like everytime something okay happens everything just turns to shit again. My entire life has been turned upside down in two weeks.
My boyfriend passed away.
I got fired from my job.
Someone called my parents and told on me.
I failed three finals.
3 of my friends have been expelled.
The school has searched my backpack.
My parents give me pee tests.
The school called my house to tell my parents all my friends are getting busted and that I hang out with the wrong crowd.
All my friends are either, in jail, dead, or in rehab.
I dont know what the fuck to do.
I'm not looking for people to feel sorry for me. I'm just looking for someone to fucking understand that everything is not okay and it doesnt have to be all the time. Problem is it never is. Nothing is going right in my life. nothing. everything is a peice of shit. I have nothing. No one. Going No where with my life. I cant believe I'm typing this shit. Admiting it the world that I am un-fucking-stable. But at this point in time, who the fuck cares. Everyone in this world is so god damn fake its about time someone got real.
For those of you at Travis's service, I hope you know I meant what I said.