it had to come at some time
This is it. That point in my life where I need to make decisions. Choices that will affect the rest of my life. I need to grow up. I need to stop relying on other people. I can't keep living like this. I can't depend on other people for the rest of my life. I'm the only who can make the choices and decisions that will affect me life, for me. I need to start doing things for me and not worry about other people. Life is what you make it and I plan to make mine the best that I possibly can for myself and those in my life. If that means losing some things or gaining some things, then so be it, but I've got to get things straight. I'm a senior in high school and I still act like a fourth grader. I need to be independent. Sure of myself. You can be the most mature person and still be in need of growing up. I've got my demons, I've got skeletons in my closet, yeah, plenty of em. But that wont stop me from starting my life, right now. Right here, right now. I've been very blessed in my life to have what I have and to know the people I do. Don't get me wrong, I understand that and appreciate everything everyone has done for me greatly but I just can't keep on going like this. Most of my friends are in jail, expelled, dropped out, graduated and doing nothing, never did graduate, drug addicts, or alcoholics. I don't want any of that for me. I want to graduate high school, and move on. Move on but not forget the things that brought me to this point of realization. You'll never truly know yourself until you allow yourself to open up. This is my life and I'm going to make of it what I can. From now on, nothing will stop me.