I feel crushed
I thought it was the end of the world when i realized that i could never fit into the popular crowd in middle school. So I started making my own rules. My own religion my own life.
well here in college. I thought hard and wondered what it would be like to be in a coed fraternity. so i tried out and for the past 10 weeks my life went down the drain. and as of last Thursday i wasn't good enough for the fraternity. i, again, wasn't good enough to be in a the "cool" fraternity.
and I cried. because this is something that i wanted so much that in the end i didn't anymore.
then i realized, that i had stopped all my dreams to try to join the fraternity. i stopped my club from starting. i stumped my happiness from evolving, but most of all. I stopped my independent nature from rocking the world.
so in a way. i've have come to a major change in my life. i am more determined to be the odd ball and never fit in into anyone's standards.
because my standards are my own. and i do what i do because i am the one and only who can be me. and there has yet to be a situation in which i can be my complete self.
well here in college. I thought hard and wondered what it would be like to be in a coed fraternity. so i tried out and for the past 10 weeks my life went down the drain. and as of last Thursday i wasn't good enough for the fraternity. i, again, wasn't good enough to be in a the "cool" fraternity.
and I cried. because this is something that i wanted so much that in the end i didn't anymore.
then i realized, that i had stopped all my dreams to try to join the fraternity. i stopped my club from starting. i stumped my happiness from evolving, but most of all. I stopped my independent nature from rocking the world.
so in a way. i've have come to a major change in my life. i am more determined to be the odd ball and never fit in into anyone's standards.
because my standards are my own. and i do what i do because i am the one and only who can be me. and there has yet to be a situation in which i can be my complete self.