it's not who you think it is
i envy her. i guess i've always kind of did. we're kind of the same, but sometimes i think she has it better in every aspect we're in comparison. she's happy, very happy. i wish i was just as happy.
huh, i've never confessed this.
you would think he'd call if he wanted to make things right again or if he just wanted this stupid feud to end. but no, he goes on blaming himself and pushing himself away from me and his friends. if i'm not worth your time, then fine. i fucking told you to call me when your mood lightens up. i guess you're still pissed at whatever happened and holding yourself accountable for it. what happened to just letting it go? i fucking did. and you were the one always saying that you just want the fighting to end. well, i tried to end it yesterday night but you kept on insisting. i told you i didn't want you out there alone without your car or someone else with you. and you probably didn't listen anyway. and what happened? SUPPOSEDLY, you got "mugged" or whatever that means to you. does it always have to happen everytime we go through this? it's just pure coincidence or a pure lie for attention. don't you want the attention?! obviously, you probably do because you THINK (and not KNOW) that people do still care for you. and apprently, you can't see that through me.. anymore, at least. i'm sorry if this is just a fucking heartbreak to you.. the truth.. but someone had to say it and I'M SAYING IT. if you don't like truth then you don't like me. it fucking sucks to hear it but i'm not going to hold back what i have going on in my head.
i still fucking love you.. i've never changed a fucking feeling about you eversince the beginning. i'm still by your side but you probably don't see right now BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT LETTING ME THROUGH. CALL ME BECAUSE YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO. YOU KNOW YOU NEED ME LIKE I NEED YOU. IAPLU.