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i;m sick of his lies. i've had enough lies told to me in the past 3 weeks, i don't need anymore. i'm sick of his shit. he's my best friend and i love him, but he needs to figure out what the fuck is going on inside his head before he tells people and gets their hopes up. i feel so fucking used. stop telling the same thing to two girls. we are smart, we can figure it out on our own. did u get what u wanted out of the deal? if u have, im glad one of us did. i feel used, i feel regret, i think i made a mistake. and now i cant change any of it. i cant get my friend back who left me because of what i did, things seem weird between us now, and i dunno, i just hate it when i see you flirting with other girls like you did with me. it hurts, and i am just mad and upset and everything about what you have said to me in the past two weeks. you say that it is going to happen between us, that we will probably end up going out. then u say that your leaving in a month and that it would just be better if we were friends so that i dont get hurt. either way i am going to get hurt. its like u use the fact that your leaving to get out of a situation that might be messy for you. god, just tell us the fucking truth. i have never felt regret before...now i do..and i dont want to. i dont want to be mad at you, i dont want to lose you, i dont want to get hurt, but yet i know i will...i may seem tough on the outside, but i do have feelings, and i can get hurt. so will you finally talk to me and tell me the fucking truth for once?