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I used to sort of look up to you.
As my friend, you were so strong, and independent, and the things you would tell me would make it seem like you wouldn't let anyone walk all over you, and that you knew who you were and would not let anyone take advantage of that.
And now...you're just...so different.
You're letting someone use you and walk all over you, and you keep going back...every time. You would always tell me not to do that, that it was just not good, for the heart or for any other part of me. And now look at you. You kind of disgust me now. I just lose respect every time I hear about it.
Other then that, I just...grrrr...hate my aunt and uncle sometimes. Today, was so frusterating. At work, there were three bar people including me, the whole day was slow, and yet they wouldnt let me, or anyone else, leave early. So I come home, my new shirts have arrived, I slip one on. Go downstairs to join the family party. Tony was late showing up, so I was worried and upset, and was getting so annoyed because my uncle kept like...pushing me and slapping me whenever he said some joke towards me....and then...my aunt just so loudly comments about my shirt. "EW, THAT IS JUST...SOOO GRUESOME!!!!!!1 OOOH AHHH BLA BLA BLA." That just...hit the wrong button inside of me. That really offends me. I like the shirt, the graphic on it is actually quite beautiful. I don't comment so boldy about the fact that she weighs over 400 lbs and how badly she raises her children. I don't comment about her shirt or her pants or her anything. It was just rude. I feel like my character is being insulted. Who I am is being insulted. For some reason, it's just SOOO out there, to be..idk...different. Some people in my family can't accept that. And hey, that's totally understandable, but they don't need to publicly announce it by criticizing what I wear, or do. If you can't say anything nice, then don't fucking say anything at all.
As my friend, you were so strong, and independent, and the things you would tell me would make it seem like you wouldn't let anyone walk all over you, and that you knew who you were and would not let anyone take advantage of that.
And now...you're just...so different.
You're letting someone use you and walk all over you, and you keep going back...every time. You would always tell me not to do that, that it was just not good, for the heart or for any other part of me. And now look at you. You kind of disgust me now. I just lose respect every time I hear about it.
Other then that, I just...grrrr...hate my aunt and uncle sometimes. Today, was so frusterating. At work, there were three bar people including me, the whole day was slow, and yet they wouldnt let me, or anyone else, leave early. So I come home, my new shirts have arrived, I slip one on. Go downstairs to join the family party. Tony was late showing up, so I was worried and upset, and was getting so annoyed because my uncle kept like...pushing me and slapping me whenever he said some joke towards me....and then...my aunt just so loudly comments about my shirt. "EW, THAT IS JUST...SOOO GRUESOME!!!!!!1 OOOH AHHH BLA BLA BLA." That just...hit the wrong button inside of me. That really offends me. I like the shirt, the graphic on it is actually quite beautiful. I don't comment so boldy about the fact that she weighs over 400 lbs and how badly she raises her children. I don't comment about her shirt or her pants or her anything. It was just rude. I feel like my character is being insulted. Who I am is being insulted. For some reason, it's just SOOO out there, to be..idk...different. Some people in my family can't accept that. And hey, that's totally understandable, but they don't need to publicly announce it by criticizing what I wear, or do. If you can't say anything nice, then don't fucking say anything at all.