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Things are better than they were. I'm feeling much better than I did last weekend. Just so everyone knows, drinking doesn't help a broken heart. It just makes you vomit, and feel like shit, physically. Seeing/Talking to Edd helped, A LOT. And a few people might think I'm dumb for still talking to him, but I talk to just about every single one of my exes, whether or not I dumped them, or they dumped me. Two of whom are my closest friends. Also hung out with Edd tonight, he's leaving for Texas Monday morning. I'm definately going to make a trip out there this fall. I miss him like crazy when he's gone, I love him like a brother.
I start my new job next week. I'm excited and nervous. Sad, too. As much as I don't want to leave the people I work with, because I love (most of) them. But, it's time to grow up and get a full time job (and a lovely raise to go with it). I was going to take a class this semester, but I didn't make my final decision until a week before registration, so I'm waiting until Spring. I just want to take those "bullshit" classes (as I like to call them), like English and History and such, so when I go to art school, I won't have to deal with them, I can just focus on my art. Also got my student loan all fixed. I was way behind on the payments, but I got a forbarence(sp?), and my next payment is in January. So, now I don't have to worry about it at all until then. Because I have my brother's wedding the end of the month, Christmas is coming soon, and I want to try and work out my credit card debt.
I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don’t believe it makes me real
I thought it’d be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own
This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it’s the only thing that I have
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own
On my own
I tried to be perfect
It just wasn’t worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It’s hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own
I start my new job next week. I'm excited and nervous. Sad, too. As much as I don't want to leave the people I work with, because I love (most of) them. But, it's time to grow up and get a full time job (and a lovely raise to go with it). I was going to take a class this semester, but I didn't make my final decision until a week before registration, so I'm waiting until Spring. I just want to take those "bullshit" classes (as I like to call them), like English and History and such, so when I go to art school, I won't have to deal with them, I can just focus on my art. Also got my student loan all fixed. I was way behind on the payments, but I got a forbarence(sp?), and my next payment is in January. So, now I don't have to worry about it at all until then. Because I have my brother's wedding the end of the month, Christmas is coming soon, and I want to try and work out my credit card debt.
I tried to be perfect
But nothing was worth it
I don’t believe it makes me real
I thought it’d be easy
But no one believes me
I meant all the things I said
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own
This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don’t know how it got so bad
Sometimes it’s so crazy
That nothing can save me
But it’s the only thing that I have
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own
On my own
I tried to be perfect
It just wasn’t worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It’s hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along
If you believe it’s in my soul
I’d say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I’m trying to let you know
That I’m better off on my own