DONE
I havent really really updated on this thing in what seems to be a long time. And yet, so so much has happened. Its not the events that have happened that have really changed me or the things I do, but more so the effects of what has happened. For once, in such a long time, I felt like I needed to just let go. COMPLETELY! Just go out and find something to live for. Be completely independent, with no fall back plans. I havent had the time or put in the effort to decided how I plan on doing this, but I want to make it happen. I want to get away from alot of things, and as terrible as it sounds, alot of people, People I would have NEVER thought to escape their presence. I feel I need to. The things that have gone on lately...WOW... they have been ridiculous on all levels. Its old. Really is. It's made me appreciate the friends that I do consider real though. The other day, in the midst of it all, my cell phone rang and I grabbed the phone to look at the caller ID (what you usually do), and I saw who it was, smiled to myself, knew I wanted to talk to him cause I try to everyday BUT decided to put the phone down and just appreciate him for a second. and in doing that I realized, the goodness of alot of people. It's wierd how things soo dramatic and bad and dumb can make the good of other people come out. Its undescribable how I've felt lately. Its not so much that I've been bothered and all that comes with it, but more like all the hurt, anger, etc. from this one stupid event has made me almost happier in a sense. I dont know if its all making sense, but I guess the bad has made me seek the good and the better, and I've seen just that. What's really better out there. That and the fact that I want to make good and better things and surroundings.
As for the events of the past week or so...I'm DONE.
It's DONE.
No regrets, but a MISTAKE for sure.
As for the events of the past week or so...I'm DONE.
It's DONE.
No regrets, but a MISTAKE for sure.