no!!
I dont know its comming back to it again. I fucking need to get him outta my mind, its not even funny I tried I really did but then again I try to like ppl and still somewhat dont. Anyways yea its not fair I even tried to find someone else to make him somewhat disapear but now its just making everything more confussing like always. Wow my dad just embaressed me and appel he was like wanna go parrel parking and hes like dont kiss her and all this other crap. Why cant u just make urself forget ppl it would be soo much easier to live but no I have to linger on brandon which fucking sucks because I dont want to be jelous or wish anything even though I miss the old times and I do still like him I guess I dunno I just wish I knew who I liked and would never have to question myself about that stuff or be like am I making a mistake on my desicion? I hate it because I still like an asshole if anything why cant I not forget someone great not someone that pretty much treated me like crap, he didnt but he wasnt a great bf, its funny because I didnt even care because I felt taht I loved him soo much that it didnt even matter to me until those days when ppl have to steal ur bfs away and then they think im doing it back but humm lets see how the fuck can I when he likes u the whore that ull always be no matter how uve changed, I dont care all british ppl are the same and I dont care if tehre diffrent u ruined it for all of them u and ur sister. Anyways im not that mean to do that actully I mighta tried alittle but not like u did u prob fucked him to steal him. I cant even trust that he didnt cheat on me with her because I heard stuff from ppl but w/e if he wants to be a fuck up good for him go fuck up with her that little tramp, who admitts that there fav act to jump on is sex.. yeah whore does that mean u fuck everybody.? puhh thats something u dont admit I dont care who the fuck u are its tmi no one wants to hear that even from a freshman.. damn wats up with little kids being such whores these days.Its funny someone was like I wouldnt want to be on ur bad side.. lmfhao yea I will sure keep going about it until it kills. I wish everything would just be good I dont know if that can or will ever happen thought which is very sad. I even tried to give Anthony a try I mean he like loves me but for some reason its not good enought for me maybe because he doesnt live close and w/e else but its still bad. Other guys ha they just depends I guess u know how it is when u think u like someone but u dont that happens alot it really does. I cant explain this feeling I think about it everyday and even thought (uve) moved on it gets so hard to walk away..