need to let out of system
thoug i am happy, there is still a little bit of sad in me left. i know that day by day it will fizzle away and all will be as it should be. words are words, especially in this case. i don't believe much anymore. well, no. i don't know what to believe. i'm working on it. all i know for sure is that i am starting to let go. it still hurts. i have to admit that. but, i still can't help but talk a bulk of the blame for myself. i was an idiot! a total fucking idio!!! don't think i'll ever have what i had back. that's the hard part. letting go is the hard part. happy thoughts are all i have to offer now.
other part of my life is going good. can't believe i found jason. what were the odds, and that they would have so much in common. jason is closer to my age though being 27. it was awesome talking to him. i was sooo sleepy so sounded kind of like an idiot. he said i was cute though. from cali too? weird. it was all so sureal. hope to talk to him again one day. added him to my msn. i'll do better this time around, i know it. he's cool. a possible keeper as a friend.
so much i still need to let out but need sleep more.
other part of my life is going good. can't believe i found jason. what were the odds, and that they would have so much in common. jason is closer to my age though being 27. it was awesome talking to him. i was sooo sleepy so sounded kind of like an idiot. he said i was cute though. from cali too? weird. it was all so sureal. hope to talk to him again one day. added him to my msn. i'll do better this time around, i know it. he's cool. a possible keeper as a friend.
so much i still need to let out but need sleep more.