Quest for truth
I have spent nearly all of my life, consciously at times and subconsciously at others, searching for truth. This is my quest, my mission, my everything. I have followed this path without fail for years now.
I have learned so much in the last year, it makes my head spin at times. The tricky part is, every time that I learn one thing that can be called truth, I discover it is not something that latch onto and make the focal point of my life. Rather it is the key to hundreds of other truths, that are equally important, and equally able to unlock even more truths.
This endless process has made many a seeker turn away, grab hold of what they have learned and leave the path content in knowing only some of what is truth. Like a gambler they reach a point where the believe it is better to leave with some chips than none at all, and they exit the game. Not realizing that although there are points in the game where you will lose all of your chips, with one truth you will destroy everything that you have thought to stand on and fight for... this is all part of it! That is at times the most important part, to be redefined, to be reshaped, to be reborn... you must die.
In all honesty I cannot list the things that I have learned because they are not those sorts of truths. I can tell you that in the last year, mostly in the last 3 months, I have gained more defenition of who I am than in the last 5 years. I know far more about what I will and will not do, what I will stand for and what I am willing to let go. I already seemed to most to be confident in who I am, more than many of those around me. Imagine that times 10. Scary huh? I have only one suggestion then: Do not oppose truth. If you do not find yourself in opposition to truth you will not find yourself in oppostion to me.
Truth is found in life, no one book has all of it, no one person has all of it. We need to experience every aspect of life completely to find it. Keep searching, keep trying. In the end if you all gain is defenition of who you are, that is the ultimate prize.