yeah.
I'll say it.
I'm thinking about taking a year and a half off between graduation and grad school.
I really don't think my sample is ready. I know I said it was, but... I want to polish and polish and polish until I have something truly great.
And I'm scared I won't get in anywhere. I'm applying to seven places, and I don't think any of them will take me. Plus... my BFA advisor who I said I really liked at the beginning of the semester? Not so much anymore. He's a bit condescending toward me, and I don't think I'm going to get a sparkling seal of approval from him, which is what I flat-out NEED. I don't think I'll even get a recommendation from him, period. He acts like he just tolerates me, and that's about it.
I am frightened. I need his help, and he won't help me. He barely knows me, let alone my writing.
Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck fuck.
I think I need Tim Parrish.
Danielle - if you see this today, can you go to his office and get his schedule, please? I'm thinking about paying him a personal call. Thank you.
*This ambivalence is fucking paralyzing.
I'm thinking about taking a year and a half off between graduation and grad school.
I really don't think my sample is ready. I know I said it was, but... I want to polish and polish and polish until I have something truly great.
And I'm scared I won't get in anywhere. I'm applying to seven places, and I don't think any of them will take me. Plus... my BFA advisor who I said I really liked at the beginning of the semester? Not so much anymore. He's a bit condescending toward me, and I don't think I'm going to get a sparkling seal of approval from him, which is what I flat-out NEED. I don't think I'll even get a recommendation from him, period. He acts like he just tolerates me, and that's about it.
I am frightened. I need his help, and he won't help me. He barely knows me, let alone my writing.
Fuck. Fuck fuck fuck fuck.
I think I need Tim Parrish.
Danielle - if you see this today, can you go to his office and get his schedule, please? I'm thinking about paying him a personal call. Thank you.
*This ambivalence is fucking paralyzing.