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so damn lonely. no one is in my apartment. and while i'm tired, i'm not ready for bed. my mind is moving like a mile a minute with all the things i want to bitch about.
i'm lonely. i just wish i was curled up tight with liam, or really any warm body at this point. it's not even a sexual thing, i just need to be with someone. and surprisingly to me i am doing okay sleeping alone. i thought i'd be having a break down because i got used to sleeping with liam. but i actually welcome a half empty bed. but tonight i'm cold, exhausted, and badly want to curl up with someone. (obviously my preference is liam)
i did have a good day though, i got to bond with a lot of sisters and i managed to have my talk with Laura, the assistant pledge mom. the workshop wasn't too bad, although it was about 12 hours long. we had about an hour for lunch and two or so for dinner. it was good. i think we got a lot done. i am trying hard to remain positive because i've got another long ass day ahead of me tomorrow. i don't have to go tomorrow but i'd feel bad not being there. especially because the sisters know i am on campus and can't just go home. so i'd feel like i was skipping out on them. I think I am going to ride in with LeFevre, and then we are going to leave for the Eagles game at 1.
my neck and back really hurt. I should IM my inspiration and tell her to come give me a massage. she has magic hands. she massaged my neck/back for like 6 minutes today and I pudding. i kept sliding forward until my head was on the table. mmm i love my inspiration.
i got to see my little yesterday. that made me really happy. i missed her a lot. so i got my little "fix" which should last me until school starts. i mean, i'll see her tomorrow and I saw her today but it was awesome to see her yesterday. I got a lot of hugs yesterday from the sisters, and today. It was good times.
I think this is sufficently long enough.
i'm lonely. i just wish i was curled up tight with liam, or really any warm body at this point. it's not even a sexual thing, i just need to be with someone. and surprisingly to me i am doing okay sleeping alone. i thought i'd be having a break down because i got used to sleeping with liam. but i actually welcome a half empty bed. but tonight i'm cold, exhausted, and badly want to curl up with someone. (obviously my preference is liam)
i did have a good day though, i got to bond with a lot of sisters and i managed to have my talk with Laura, the assistant pledge mom. the workshop wasn't too bad, although it was about 12 hours long. we had about an hour for lunch and two or so for dinner. it was good. i think we got a lot done. i am trying hard to remain positive because i've got another long ass day ahead of me tomorrow. i don't have to go tomorrow but i'd feel bad not being there. especially because the sisters know i am on campus and can't just go home. so i'd feel like i was skipping out on them. I think I am going to ride in with LeFevre, and then we are going to leave for the Eagles game at 1.
my neck and back really hurt. I should IM my inspiration and tell her to come give me a massage. she has magic hands. she massaged my neck/back for like 6 minutes today and I pudding. i kept sliding forward until my head was on the table. mmm i love my inspiration.
i got to see my little yesterday. that made me really happy. i missed her a lot. so i got my little "fix" which should last me until school starts. i mean, i'll see her tomorrow and I saw her today but it was awesome to see her yesterday. I got a lot of hugs yesterday from the sisters, and today. It was good times.
I think this is sufficently long enough.