Titles Are Over Rated
*This is your life*
*Are you who you want to be?*
Everyone, im going to ask you to bear with me at the current moment. Im not doing all too well, and for those of you who know me well, you know I tend to keep my problems to myself. Its just the way that I am. I guess all I want to get across is the following...
Scott, I am very very very sorry that I wasn't there for you this weekend when you needed me. I just couldn't be around you when you were sad, especially over someone commiting suicide. I know it was selfish, and wrong, and I should have said something as to why I couldn't be around you, but I didn't, and I hope you can forgive me. While I didn't lie, since I am busy, there are circumstances right now that really don't make me feel comfortable being around you while your upset. You know when you can't deal with something, because you have already taken on too much for yourself to handle, and you can feel the impending breakdown? Yeah... that would be where I am right now, and unfortunately, I don't think I am strong enough to be with you while you are going through this. I really wish that I could. If you want to know why, you can ask. I just don't want to write it here. I hope your ok, and you are talking to someone. I <3 you.
Kelly, Im sorry I really haven't been around much lately. Most times, its because im at work. I work all the time, and it sucks. The other times, I just can't be around people. It's like im afraid that my shitty mood will rub off on people. I don't know how else to describe it. I read your journal entry on how you miss Scott, and I hope that you are taking care of him because I can't. Anyways, you know I <3 you too, and ill definately call you tomorrow.
Time for sleepies now though. Ill talk to you all soon.
<3