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she's coming home.
yet i feel as though she has died.
i guess in a way its true.
she is no longer herself
but merely a tattered and corroded shell
of the girl she used to be.
my stomach turns as i gaze at old photographs.
we were never friends
except for that instant.
a single second that passed by so quickly
and had i known
i would have seized it
to never let it go.
my heart is hurting.
i feel betrayed.
cheated.
she was taken from me
before she was ever mine.
and somehow i skipped a step.
i didnt do my part
to keep her out of trouble.
to protect her from the evil
that eventually buried its claws into her.
i failed as her guide.
her guard.
it will never end
until it all ends.
until she takes her last breath.
it has won.
yet i feel as though she has died.
i guess in a way its true.
she is no longer herself
but merely a tattered and corroded shell
of the girl she used to be.
my stomach turns as i gaze at old photographs.
we were never friends
except for that instant.
a single second that passed by so quickly
and had i known
i would have seized it
to never let it go.
my heart is hurting.
i feel betrayed.
cheated.
she was taken from me
before she was ever mine.
and somehow i skipped a step.
i didnt do my part
to keep her out of trouble.
to protect her from the evil
that eventually buried its claws into her.
i failed as her guide.
her guard.
it will never end
until it all ends.
until she takes her last breath.
it has won.