Dec 10, 2004 00:58
I really wish the guitar (and my utter lack of talent) didn't plague me so. I try. Very hard. And what my guitar does, causes a sound that couldn't be further from what I was aiming for. I don't think we get along.
Guitarmaggedon.
So I went to Adam McTallhomo's Christmas party tonight with Shelby. It proved to me that I truly am not gay. If that's gay, I don't want to be it. I don't mean Adam...or any specific people there...it was just like they belong to another world than I do. I don't understand it. It makes me shudder. I'm sure there's some deep rooted psychologic reason for this. But I'm just going with "I'm cooler than them...so that's why I don't like them."
I'm listening to Dashboard right now. And scoff if you must, but it's kind of a blast from the past. And while I don't really listen to them now, there was a time I listened religiously. Because it helped. And this really takes me back.
I was so young and naive. That was only two years ago. What will I think of now-me in two more years. Sometimes I think I'm getting things figured out. But this thought process tells me I don't know shit.
This is both overwhelming, and comforting at the same time.
It's time now for lay on the rug and chill in the mellow, Dashboard induced relaxation time.
Peace~