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The fear that lies beneath.
Current mood: determined
For the majority of my life, I have lived in fear of failure; a fear that has paralysed my decision making process in life's grey areas. In every sense of the word, I've taken cautious steps towards goals that have no guarantee of success; taking music as a career, waiting for the right woman to come along instead of jumping at the first pretty face I see, always moving forward but prepared to take those quick fleeting steps back. In no way am I saying that cautious decisions are wrong. Using wisdom and taking your time can save you a lot of trouble, and it has...but "playing it safe" can also hinder some of the more beautiful aspects of life. So, with this revelation pumping through my veins, I've decided to take a leap into a life I've only dreamt of for many years. Maybe I'll make it, maybe I won't...but as we all know, the only way to find out the answer to some of life's most intriguing questions is to try it. This applies to all facets of my life. I will stop waiting. The time to engage is now. I have the tools necessary for this task, so now I must embark on this journey. More preparation is an easy way to stall.
Throughout this journey, there will be struggles. There will also be battles. But I know to be the man I am supposed to be, I must take these challenges head on. I have close friends that have always been behind me, parents that love me, and a God who protects and inspires me. So, here I go. Off to become a piece of a puzzle that is so much bigger than me. I'm not here to make a mark on the world. I'm here to finish my path in life which, in turn, will affect the people in my world along with myself. Think of me, pray for me, scoff at me, make fun...whatever it is you do best, because I'm going for it...and I will not stop. Duane the boy bids you all farewell. Duane Michael Mays the man will greet you warmly when he returns.
Cheers~
Current mood: determined
For the majority of my life, I have lived in fear of failure; a fear that has paralysed my decision making process in life's grey areas. In every sense of the word, I've taken cautious steps towards goals that have no guarantee of success; taking music as a career, waiting for the right woman to come along instead of jumping at the first pretty face I see, always moving forward but prepared to take those quick fleeting steps back. In no way am I saying that cautious decisions are wrong. Using wisdom and taking your time can save you a lot of trouble, and it has...but "playing it safe" can also hinder some of the more beautiful aspects of life. So, with this revelation pumping through my veins, I've decided to take a leap into a life I've only dreamt of for many years. Maybe I'll make it, maybe I won't...but as we all know, the only way to find out the answer to some of life's most intriguing questions is to try it. This applies to all facets of my life. I will stop waiting. The time to engage is now. I have the tools necessary for this task, so now I must embark on this journey. More preparation is an easy way to stall.
Throughout this journey, there will be struggles. There will also be battles. But I know to be the man I am supposed to be, I must take these challenges head on. I have close friends that have always been behind me, parents that love me, and a God who protects and inspires me. So, here I go. Off to become a piece of a puzzle that is so much bigger than me. I'm not here to make a mark on the world. I'm here to finish my path in life which, in turn, will affect the people in my world along with myself. Think of me, pray for me, scoff at me, make fun...whatever it is you do best, because I'm going for it...and I will not stop. Duane the boy bids you all farewell. Duane Michael Mays the man will greet you warmly when he returns.
Cheers~