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today, my eyeshadow looked really awesome, for those of you who care, or even read this. also, i went to school, skipped most of last period and told my teacher i was going to my couselor's office....which technically, i did...for a few minutes. then i went in the bathroom for like 30 minutes and talked to heather and tried calling brian, ira, and chris...none of which answered. so i called chris reed and it was a very short conversation, so about 15 minutes before class ended i went back to class. the bell rang and i went to ashley's car. she's sees me and she already knows she's driving me somewhere when i stand by her car and wait for her to get out of class. "where am i taking you?" "to the coffeeshop." "get in." i get there and chris reed is there. he is stoned. we were supposed to go get caesar salads (no chicken in mine) after school, but nooo....he's fucking stoned and not hungry anymore. drugs are shit. they fucking suck. out of the things that i feel bad about, i can honestly say that i have never done any drugs and never will. as for the rest of my day, i just sat outside of coffee rani on the patio, eating my salad, feeling very alone. i think it was the weather. i took my medicine today, but i didn't take it til last period when i was in my couselor's office. i haven't been eating much lately. i'm feeling kind of weak. i haven't drank milk in about 3 or 4 weeks and haven't eaten meat really, except that sausage and cheese biscuit. it felt good to eat a salad. anyway, yesterday i snuck off campus and went to rosita's and got chips and cheese dip and salsa for lunch for my friends. i ordered it the class before lunch over the phone then my friends gave me money and i went and got it...i guess i'm the only one with anough guts to do that...or maybe cause i'm not scared of getting suspended or getting in any trouble at my dumbass school. tomorrow, i have to work and then me and heather and shannon are going to open mic night (poetry readings) at java grotto after work. then i don't have school friday so i have band practice. friday night liz is sleeping over and saturday we're going to a show in new orleans. i was telling chris about it and he was like "where's it at?" and i was like "the lions club" and he's like "oh, i'm gonna go to that, that should be a good show" and he kept saying he was going to go to it. i don't want him there. i really don't. i wanted it to be just me and liz, i don't want to see him at a show. anyway, i'm trying convince my parents to take me to florida to go visit daniel for spring break. i really want to. i wish i could see him again. hopefully i will.
Summer I laid down by you and shared my frail light.
You gave the dark to me.
Cover your eyes and we'll die together.
Will you cry for me? Will you cry for me, or will you cry with me?
I've been a lonely one.
I've had this whole world drained from me.
Am I the only one?
...comment if you care to.
Summer I laid down by you and shared my frail light.
You gave the dark to me.
Cover your eyes and we'll die together.
Will you cry for me? Will you cry for me, or will you cry with me?
I've been a lonely one.
I've had this whole world drained from me.
Am I the only one?
...comment if you care to.