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It's been a really long time.
Um....still working at the YMCA, but I am activley looking for a full time job with better pay....becasue these $240 paychecks I'm getting is not going to cut it.
Things with Chris are alright. There are a lot of issues that we need to work out. But I know that we love eachother. I know becasue we have broken up and gotten back together twice now. There are just things that we have to work on. Issues that we both have....scars from the past I guess you can say. Sometimes I feel like giving up....but then I think of the good times, and I just can't. When Chris and I are happy together....I am happier than I remember being in a long time. Since high school. Nothing good ever comes without work. And it is worth it. I think that we are both afriad. We are both trying to hard not to get hurt. Chris more than me....but if you think about it......that makes sense. He was hurt much more recently than I was. He is strong.....and I tell him I love him every day. I know he will learn that he can really trust me. I'm not saying things will ever be perfect....because I know they won't...but I have high hopes that things will be good....maybe even great....someday. Right now "okay" is fine for me.
Hopefully I will be going out with my friend Jaclyn that I worked with at Kindercare tomorrow. It will be fun I think. She's getting married, and I'm a bridesmaid. She's also pregnant! Yay! I love babies. It will be good to see her again! I hope it all works out and we are able to get together.
That's about all for now I think. I'm on the computer at work, so I should go soon.....hehe....I don't know if I'm really supposed to be doing this. But....I really don't care. They don't pay me enough for me to care.
Love to all!
....and HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!
Um....still working at the YMCA, but I am activley looking for a full time job with better pay....becasue these $240 paychecks I'm getting is not going to cut it.
Things with Chris are alright. There are a lot of issues that we need to work out. But I know that we love eachother. I know becasue we have broken up and gotten back together twice now. There are just things that we have to work on. Issues that we both have....scars from the past I guess you can say. Sometimes I feel like giving up....but then I think of the good times, and I just can't. When Chris and I are happy together....I am happier than I remember being in a long time. Since high school. Nothing good ever comes without work. And it is worth it. I think that we are both afriad. We are both trying to hard not to get hurt. Chris more than me....but if you think about it......that makes sense. He was hurt much more recently than I was. He is strong.....and I tell him I love him every day. I know he will learn that he can really trust me. I'm not saying things will ever be perfect....because I know they won't...but I have high hopes that things will be good....maybe even great....someday. Right now "okay" is fine for me.
Hopefully I will be going out with my friend Jaclyn that I worked with at Kindercare tomorrow. It will be fun I think. She's getting married, and I'm a bridesmaid. She's also pregnant! Yay! I love babies. It will be good to see her again! I hope it all works out and we are able to get together.
That's about all for now I think. I'm on the computer at work, so I should go soon.....hehe....I don't know if I'm really supposed to be doing this. But....I really don't care. They don't pay me enough for me to care.
Love to all!
....and HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!