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So after work today i went home and finally had that little breakdown i've been waiting for.
I cried because i'm working and schooling to the point where...
I don't have time to get christmas presents for people
I dont have time to wrap them.
I dont have time to make pizelles with my nanny
I dont have time to hang out with my family
I still havent gone to an actual bar since I turned 21
My one tradition for the holiday is to see a christmas carol at trinity rep, and i dont have a single day/night to go and see it before it ends
I realized i'm probably working christmas eve, christmas night, the day after christmas, new years eve and maybe even new years day.
Pete will be gone Friday before christmas till the tuesday after christmas...
What is the point of the holidays? Its not about gifts and presents its about helping others and being with friends and family, and enjoying what we have.
and i dont ahve time for it.
So i cried a lot tonight. It's sad because holidays aren't disposable.
So I needed to do a shit load of homework tonight but instead i decided to spend it with my dad (because my mom is in the hospital again..i dont know why, i dont ask questions anymore....and yes, its because i dont give a shit).... We went out to eat and I actually got a decent buzz off two glasses of wine, then we did some christmas shopping, but i couldnt find any of the gifts i needed to buy...but at least i got to hang out with my dad. Just him and I , and it meant alot.
on a positive note.
I made $30 an hour working at party at pinz last night for the bellingham police department! Yessssss. ( at least i have money to buy the presents when I have time)
I cried because i'm working and schooling to the point where...
I don't have time to get christmas presents for people
I dont have time to wrap them.
I dont have time to make pizelles with my nanny
I dont have time to hang out with my family
I still havent gone to an actual bar since I turned 21
My one tradition for the holiday is to see a christmas carol at trinity rep, and i dont have a single day/night to go and see it before it ends
I realized i'm probably working christmas eve, christmas night, the day after christmas, new years eve and maybe even new years day.
Pete will be gone Friday before christmas till the tuesday after christmas...
What is the point of the holidays? Its not about gifts and presents its about helping others and being with friends and family, and enjoying what we have.
and i dont ahve time for it.
So i cried a lot tonight. It's sad because holidays aren't disposable.
So I needed to do a shit load of homework tonight but instead i decided to spend it with my dad (because my mom is in the hospital again..i dont know why, i dont ask questions anymore....and yes, its because i dont give a shit).... We went out to eat and I actually got a decent buzz off two glasses of wine, then we did some christmas shopping, but i couldnt find any of the gifts i needed to buy...but at least i got to hang out with my dad. Just him and I , and it meant alot.
on a positive note.
I made $30 an hour working at party at pinz last night for the bellingham police department! Yessssss. ( at least i have money to buy the presents when I have time)