leave all our hopelessnesses aside
I've been back in Austin since Thursday. Tomorrow is the first day of the semester. I don't know how I feel about this. I'm scared of the high level of stress I felt at different times last semester. Especially at the very end. I just hate that feeling. I really miss my dog and my friends. I miss the comfort of home. BUT-at the same time I'm glad to be back. I've missed my life here as well. And I love living so close to Jonathan. I'm just trying to keep myself from feeling anxious. I miss Kelli. It's different being back here without her.
My anxiety really does lie to me...and it's crazy how easily I believe it.
By the way I hate my neighbors! I don't know how much longer I can stand them. Alice gets sick when I turn on my little fan which I use to drown out the noise. So I can't do that anymore so I'm just gonna have to cope or do something about it. I can either knock on their door and personally ask them to be quiet (nicely of course) or I can talk to Duncan about it. I just feel so guilty calling him at 2 in the morning when he could be sleeping. But that's what he's there for!
Oh my gosh I CAN"T WAIT to have an apartment and have my puppy with me! I miss her more then I ever did before.
Bite tongue
Deep breaths
Count to ten
Nod your head
My anxiety really does lie to me...and it's crazy how easily I believe it.
By the way I hate my neighbors! I don't know how much longer I can stand them. Alice gets sick when I turn on my little fan which I use to drown out the noise. So I can't do that anymore so I'm just gonna have to cope or do something about it. I can either knock on their door and personally ask them to be quiet (nicely of course) or I can talk to Duncan about it. I just feel so guilty calling him at 2 in the morning when he could be sleeping. But that's what he's there for!
Oh my gosh I CAN"T WAIT to have an apartment and have my puppy with me! I miss her more then I ever did before.
Bite tongue
Deep breaths
Count to ten
Nod your head