emo morgan

Dec 05, 2005 18:16

since this is a place to spill rediculously emo thoughts...here i go.

i wonder if i am doing something wrong. of course i am doing something wrong. i must not care about myself enough to do the things that will help me out in the long run. i don't exercise, even though i feel great when i do, and that could totally screw me over later in life. i want to live long, and thrive don't i? so i should take better care of myself. but the problem is i feel like i don't have enough time. i barely get to talk to my boyfriend let alone see him. i almost didn't pee yesterday because i was busy at work and i forgot. i keep myself very busy and extremely preoccupied and although i love it, its totally and completely exhausting. i don't take enough time to study for school (ECON) which messes me up in so many ways. not only do my grades suffer but i miss out on privledges such as hanging out with friends, seeing kyle, or talking on the phone. most of my cut-backs due to my slacking off have taken time away from kyle most of all. i see my friends nearly everyday so not being able to hang out with them is a little less of a loss; though it still really sucks. i go through every day feeling frazzled and tired. although i don't eat a lot, i don't eat well so i think i need to lose 15-20 pounds. i am not in tune with my body's wants and needs. sleep and exercise and nutrition...study...pee...pray...hug...someone help me to remember these things. maybe i can't do it on my own.

how sad.
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