where's the spirit?
this christmas seems very... bland. i don't know what it is about it... but i just don't feel it. it's like, i dunno. we're doing all the same stuff, but i just can't find the emotion to put behind all of it. which is weird, and kinda irritating.
and i had terrible dreams last night. seriously, the worst thing i could possibly imagine... i woke up and felt worthless. so i couldn't so much get into the christmas spirit. and now i'm tired, and i don't wanna go to sleep cause i'm afraid that the dreams will continue, not that it usually happens, but still. blah.
on a lighter note, i helped my mom make crepes which was exciting. i'm so french.
i went to church last night, it was okay. very crowded. they had live sheep on the later. word up to the lamb of god. i wonder how they figured out which one it was.
i got some cool stuff for christmas, mostly money for my investment account, 3 books about investing and what not. so we'll see if i can double whatever i invest again. that would make me proud.
i also got a waffle maker... i had a good dream about waffles last night with strawberries. and i got some cool stuff for my ipod. and clothes and stuff. olivia got me the first season of Smallville... which was thoughtful since i like superheros... but i don't like smallville so much. would i be a horrible person if i returned it? probably. i'll just give it to ryan f. he can watch the opening sequence over and over again and sing along.
ugh... my head hurts. i'm going to watch dorky christmas movies and maybe fall asleep.
p.s. check out my emo lj pic. i cartooned over a real pic of myself and made it all weird looking. it's fun.
and i had terrible dreams last night. seriously, the worst thing i could possibly imagine... i woke up and felt worthless. so i couldn't so much get into the christmas spirit. and now i'm tired, and i don't wanna go to sleep cause i'm afraid that the dreams will continue, not that it usually happens, but still. blah.
on a lighter note, i helped my mom make crepes which was exciting. i'm so french.
i went to church last night, it was okay. very crowded. they had live sheep on the later. word up to the lamb of god. i wonder how they figured out which one it was.
i got some cool stuff for christmas, mostly money for my investment account, 3 books about investing and what not. so we'll see if i can double whatever i invest again. that would make me proud.
i also got a waffle maker... i had a good dream about waffles last night with strawberries. and i got some cool stuff for my ipod. and clothes and stuff. olivia got me the first season of Smallville... which was thoughtful since i like superheros... but i don't like smallville so much. would i be a horrible person if i returned it? probably. i'll just give it to ryan f. he can watch the opening sequence over and over again and sing along.
ugh... my head hurts. i'm going to watch dorky christmas movies and maybe fall asleep.
p.s. check out my emo lj pic. i cartooned over a real pic of myself and made it all weird looking. it's fun.