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i'm starting college in a week. one year late, but better late than never i guess. i have all these mixed feelings about it and i don't even know how to explain them.. right now i'm really excited. yep..
this guy keeps bugging me to hang out w/ him. it all started like two months ago when he messaged me on myspace. he seemed cool at first... until he started making requests. and he always asks me to hang out at like, 12am. and he lives like, an hour away. and he wants me to meet him halfway. in a dark parking lot. and one minute, he's really sweet & the next minute, he goes all crazy on me because i say i can't hang out and why am i doing this to him? and what the fuck is my problem? and etc etc etc. i really don't get it. and i'm obviously a really bad judge of character. i don't know.
tomorrow, i have to get my books for school. and laura, ray & i are supposed to go across the river. it's really weird hanging out w/ ray.. not in a bad way, but it's just like.. i'm used to when it was kelly & ray. now it's just ray. and i love him for it.
so basically, my days consist of working and sleeping. my nights consist of hanging out. and i'm broke as all hell. i don't even have a penny to my name right now & it's driving me crazy. so tomorrow i'm going to scrub the whole house and get some cash from my mommy. i hope.
if you believe in a higher power, pray for me.