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so far in my life very few major bad things have happened. i dont know very many people who have died, and only one person in my extended family has died.
here at whitworth i live in an all girls dorm called ballard and there is an all boys dorms called mac which is right next door. they are separate dorms but we do everything together and are basically the same dorm. there is a really strong community between mac and ballard.
over the weekend 5 guys from mac were in a car accident. 2 of them didnt get hurt, one of the got a concussion and broke his collarbone, one had a really deep cut in his foot that severed tendons, and the last one broke both his legs. everyone thought he was going to be okay, and just have a really long recovery, but he went into surgery on saturday, and by sunday he hadnt woke up, and sunday night they told everyone here they didnt think he would wake up.
I'm not super good friends with any of those guys, but i saw them and talked to them on an almost daily basis. theyre all really crazy fun guys, so everyone knows who they are, and theyre some of THE NICEST boys i know, no joke.
yesterday dan, the one who broke his legs died. i guess what happened was that he had some head injuries but because he was coherent when they brought him to the hospital the doctors didnt catch it until it was too late. his brain started swelling and there was nothing they could do about it.
this is hard for me for more than one reason. i cant imagine mac, and whitworth without dan around, i really cant. it hurts me, so much to see everyone around here hurting. and i got angry at God. it seems like God is testing everyone, and testing our faith, and i hate that. so so much. i judt dont understand why it happens. and i dont understand why THESE guys, the nicest guys i know, and some of the strongest christians i know, would have something horrible like this happen to them.
i have done my fair share of crying over the past few days, but im doing fine. i prayed a lot, by myself and with other people, and i read the bible and i think i am finally starting to understand as much as i can. i just have to remember that God does everything for a reason. he wouldnt take dan away from us if dan wasnt ready to go. God obviously feels that dan did what he needed to do, and it was time for him to go home. and i KNOW that dan is in a better place, with God, and he is so so so SO happy in that place. i also know that dan would never want anyone to separate themselves from God because of this. he would want them to get as close to God as possible. i know God had a reason for this, and i dont understand why, but one day it will become clear.
so now all i can do is keep praying for everyone who is hurting, especially dans roommates and his family and the other guys in the car accident. and i can keep talking to God, and thats about it.
here at whitworth i live in an all girls dorm called ballard and there is an all boys dorms called mac which is right next door. they are separate dorms but we do everything together and are basically the same dorm. there is a really strong community between mac and ballard.
over the weekend 5 guys from mac were in a car accident. 2 of them didnt get hurt, one of the got a concussion and broke his collarbone, one had a really deep cut in his foot that severed tendons, and the last one broke both his legs. everyone thought he was going to be okay, and just have a really long recovery, but he went into surgery on saturday, and by sunday he hadnt woke up, and sunday night they told everyone here they didnt think he would wake up.
I'm not super good friends with any of those guys, but i saw them and talked to them on an almost daily basis. theyre all really crazy fun guys, so everyone knows who they are, and theyre some of THE NICEST boys i know, no joke.
yesterday dan, the one who broke his legs died. i guess what happened was that he had some head injuries but because he was coherent when they brought him to the hospital the doctors didnt catch it until it was too late. his brain started swelling and there was nothing they could do about it.
this is hard for me for more than one reason. i cant imagine mac, and whitworth without dan around, i really cant. it hurts me, so much to see everyone around here hurting. and i got angry at God. it seems like God is testing everyone, and testing our faith, and i hate that. so so much. i judt dont understand why it happens. and i dont understand why THESE guys, the nicest guys i know, and some of the strongest christians i know, would have something horrible like this happen to them.
i have done my fair share of crying over the past few days, but im doing fine. i prayed a lot, by myself and with other people, and i read the bible and i think i am finally starting to understand as much as i can. i just have to remember that God does everything for a reason. he wouldnt take dan away from us if dan wasnt ready to go. God obviously feels that dan did what he needed to do, and it was time for him to go home. and i KNOW that dan is in a better place, with God, and he is so so so SO happy in that place. i also know that dan would never want anyone to separate themselves from God because of this. he would want them to get as close to God as possible. i know God had a reason for this, and i dont understand why, but one day it will become clear.
so now all i can do is keep praying for everyone who is hurting, especially dans roommates and his family and the other guys in the car accident. and i can keep talking to God, and thats about it.