saddest day ive had in a while
I've been thinking about Bethe lately. Everything seems to relate to her. She's been on my mind almost everyday.
Over break i was at Church, and the youth leader asked everyone that if you could ask God for anything what would it be? my response was to have Bethe back. She looked at me, asked me how long it has been, and if i needed to see someone and talk to them about it....
I dont anyone could really relate to what I am going through unless you've loss a friend to suicide as well. It's just one of those things. And if your like me and you believe in Christianity and all their teachings it makes it even harder bc in the bible it says that suicides to go hell. How do i deal with something like that?
Not only that, but how do i deal with the fact that she called me the night she did it but i wasnt home...it sticks with you, all the what if's.
So many things i want to tell her...it's almost like...you wake up one day and your friend of 15 years decides to take her fate into her own hands...and is no longer there....it tears you up inside.
and im sure no one will truely read this all the way through but it makes me feel better to write it all out....and i heard this song...and its exactly whats on my mind...so i though i'd share...
Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
I feel you everywhere I go.
I see your smile, I see your face,
I hear you laughin' in the rain.
I still can't believe you're gone.
It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who'd you be today?
Would you see the world? Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family,
I wonder what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue,
I feel like I can talk to you,
An' I know it might sound crazy.
It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who you'd be today?
Today, today, today.
Today, today, today.
[Instrumental Break]
Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
The only thing that gives me hope,
Is I know I'll see you again some day.
Some day, some day, some day.
Over break i was at Church, and the youth leader asked everyone that if you could ask God for anything what would it be? my response was to have Bethe back. She looked at me, asked me how long it has been, and if i needed to see someone and talk to them about it....
I dont anyone could really relate to what I am going through unless you've loss a friend to suicide as well. It's just one of those things. And if your like me and you believe in Christianity and all their teachings it makes it even harder bc in the bible it says that suicides to go hell. How do i deal with something like that?
Not only that, but how do i deal with the fact that she called me the night she did it but i wasnt home...it sticks with you, all the what if's.
So many things i want to tell her...it's almost like...you wake up one day and your friend of 15 years decides to take her fate into her own hands...and is no longer there....it tears you up inside.
and im sure no one will truely read this all the way through but it makes me feel better to write it all out....and i heard this song...and its exactly whats on my mind...so i though i'd share...
Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
I feel you everywhere I go.
I see your smile, I see your face,
I hear you laughin' in the rain.
I still can't believe you're gone.
It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who'd you be today?
Would you see the world? Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family,
I wonder what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue,
I feel like I can talk to you,
An' I know it might sound crazy.
It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who you'd be today?
Today, today, today.
Today, today, today.
[Instrumental Break]
Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
The only thing that gives me hope,
Is I know I'll see you again some day.
Some day, some day, some day.