Tonight was a nice night *almost* alone
I'm glad I never feel alone when I have Mr. Kitty's company
his company is a great comfort which is probably why the two words have the same first three letters and each have 7 letters.
I facebooked some out of boredom and out of just... I don't know
I added the iRead application and just started typing in books I have read or mostly read...
I've got 103 titles listed, but I know I've missed many and some titles didn't pop up when I typed them in. Those are just the ones I thought of off the top of my head. Most were ones I read in highschool or had read many times over.
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In other news.
My head aches.
I finally got my dot so I hopefully won't go crazy anymore.
I've been on this stint of standing up for myself with people
I think I'm done standing now and can go back to normal... mostly normal
this week I lost a dear friend
I quit the candy store and the owner has since terminated our relationship
however, since we are no longer speaking, the other girl that quit too is a new friend...
I am very sad she could go from speaking to me a lot
to not even looking at me
I feel sad about it, but I will not back down.
The manner in which I brought up the issues was neither mean nor inappropriate
I had plenty of complaints and from a more objective viewpoint appeared more and more used by her
The more I tried to please, the more work I ended up with
I can't believe she could throw away our relationship
I would work practically anytime she asked
It was so rare I didn't say yes...
I am not going to list the specificities for it would go on forever
it was more a lot of little things which spread into a big thing
I worked very hard for her and I am sorry she didn't reward me.
She cried to me, yet since I hadn't stepped out of line, I had no apologies for her for I was waiting for hers first. I thought we were opening a conversation of how to mend the difficulties I was having with the position. There was no scheme nor was there any initial intention to quit. Then... after blaming me for the other employee's decision to quit (one she had on sunday, before we started talking about the injustice) I was calmly trying to explain my position and she hung up the phone on me.
I cannot work for someone who hangs up the phone on me.
That is too socially cruel and immature.
And I understand her completely, which is why I can't back down. Because if I give in she will not understand why, she will only believe she won. I forgive her, sure. However she doesn't give forgiveness so easily. And now that we are not on speaking terms I am free of her drama. ...Oh her depression drama, she constantly spoke of winning the lottery and even promised the store to me if she did. ...We shook on it, so if she ever does, I will bring that up. Not that I want her money, but could certainly use it.
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I'm sure the store will be for sale in the near future.
I have just had a premonition. I'm thinking we'll see the sign up about springtime.
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My lodgings seem secure for the time being
who knows how long that will last.
I wish they would never tear this place down and I could live here years.
I would live here until I left St. Augustine
(which is going to take me YEARS to afford :( )
his company is a great comfort which is probably why the two words have the same first three letters and each have 7 letters.
I facebooked some out of boredom and out of just... I don't know
I added the iRead application and just started typing in books I have read or mostly read...
I've got 103 titles listed, but I know I've missed many and some titles didn't pop up when I typed them in. Those are just the ones I thought of off the top of my head. Most were ones I read in highschool or had read many times over.
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In other news.
My head aches.
I finally got my dot so I hopefully won't go crazy anymore.
I've been on this stint of standing up for myself with people
I think I'm done standing now and can go back to normal... mostly normal
this week I lost a dear friend
I quit the candy store and the owner has since terminated our relationship
however, since we are no longer speaking, the other girl that quit too is a new friend...
I am very sad she could go from speaking to me a lot
to not even looking at me
I feel sad about it, but I will not back down.
The manner in which I brought up the issues was neither mean nor inappropriate
I had plenty of complaints and from a more objective viewpoint appeared more and more used by her
The more I tried to please, the more work I ended up with
I can't believe she could throw away our relationship
I would work practically anytime she asked
It was so rare I didn't say yes...
I am not going to list the specificities for it would go on forever
it was more a lot of little things which spread into a big thing
I worked very hard for her and I am sorry she didn't reward me.
She cried to me, yet since I hadn't stepped out of line, I had no apologies for her for I was waiting for hers first. I thought we were opening a conversation of how to mend the difficulties I was having with the position. There was no scheme nor was there any initial intention to quit. Then... after blaming me for the other employee's decision to quit (one she had on sunday, before we started talking about the injustice) I was calmly trying to explain my position and she hung up the phone on me.
I cannot work for someone who hangs up the phone on me.
That is too socially cruel and immature.
And I understand her completely, which is why I can't back down. Because if I give in she will not understand why, she will only believe she won. I forgive her, sure. However she doesn't give forgiveness so easily. And now that we are not on speaking terms I am free of her drama. ...Oh her depression drama, she constantly spoke of winning the lottery and even promised the store to me if she did. ...We shook on it, so if she ever does, I will bring that up. Not that I want her money, but could certainly use it.
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I'm sure the store will be for sale in the near future.
I have just had a premonition. I'm thinking we'll see the sign up about springtime.
---
My lodgings seem secure for the time being
who knows how long that will last.
I wish they would never tear this place down and I could live here years.
I would live here until I left St. Augustine
(which is going to take me YEARS to afford :( )