Whatever
It still hurts.
I hate showing that I'm vulnerable. Well, this is me at my worst. It's like I'm staring at a house that has been ripped apart by a tornado. I want to help. I want to salvage as much as I can. See if there are any survivors but the damage is so bad I don't even know where to start.
It's funny how life changes. It's really life in general that is making me feel this way, not only one thing.
I feel like I'm trapped in quicksand and the more I fight, the more I sink down deeper, so I stop moving and just remain motionless. I don't sink down any deeper, but I'm still stuck in the fucking quicksand. For a brief couple of months I was pulling myself out on a vine but wouldn't you know it, the vine snapped. So now I wait for a solution. For direction.
I wonder: If I had Jack Sparrow's compass, where would it point? I know of two places it might, but which one would it actually point at? Maybe it'd point at something entirely different. Maybe it'd just spin around because I'm not quite sure what I want.
Maybe I'll break into the rum. "Yo, ho, a pirate's life for me."
I hate showing that I'm vulnerable. Well, this is me at my worst. It's like I'm staring at a house that has been ripped apart by a tornado. I want to help. I want to salvage as much as I can. See if there are any survivors but the damage is so bad I don't even know where to start.
It's funny how life changes. It's really life in general that is making me feel this way, not only one thing.
I feel like I'm trapped in quicksand and the more I fight, the more I sink down deeper, so I stop moving and just remain motionless. I don't sink down any deeper, but I'm still stuck in the fucking quicksand. For a brief couple of months I was pulling myself out on a vine but wouldn't you know it, the vine snapped. So now I wait for a solution. For direction.
I wonder: If I had Jack Sparrow's compass, where would it point? I know of two places it might, but which one would it actually point at? Maybe it'd point at something entirely different. Maybe it'd just spin around because I'm not quite sure what I want.
Maybe I'll break into the rum. "Yo, ho, a pirate's life for me."