Major Deja Vu
I have a couple minutes of downtime and I guess I can express some of my feelings through an update...
Things are hella better with Baker. I feel like they haven't been good for a really long time, and I've missed her. It's been really stressful lately without her -- I guess it's going to be stressful either way with school, work, and life -- but still. It's hard when you're worried constantly about a best friend and if they want anything to do with you today.
Speaking of which, and as we all know, I go through boys like no one else. I told Sarah that if I say I don't like someone, it's probably bullshit. Because I do; there's never a second that I'm not physically or mentally attracted to someone. And that's still not saying much; some guy in my class said something brilliant and i'm like, ''you're hot'' just cuz he's smart. But there have been a lot of mistakes with all those crushes too. If you can even call them that.
I guess you can call them "frienefits" because that's what I'm called to someone. It's really stupid to even start something this close to the end of school for the summer.
((((((((EDIT: i just read this, and realized that it totally sounded like i want a relationship this close to summer. um, yeah right. i'm like the biggest relationship-phobe in my life. and i don't wanna touch it like i'd want to touch the plague. Not with a ten-foot-pole....never. I'd much rather not feel responsible to making someone happy......just sexually ***hahahahhaha***)))))))))
oh summer loves. can you come soon enough???
Something tells me I'll be making a lot of road trips to visit one....and her name's Sarah. Sweet :)
Things are hella better with Baker. I feel like they haven't been good for a really long time, and I've missed her. It's been really stressful lately without her -- I guess it's going to be stressful either way with school, work, and life -- but still. It's hard when you're worried constantly about a best friend and if they want anything to do with you today.
Speaking of which, and as we all know, I go through boys like no one else. I told Sarah that if I say I don't like someone, it's probably bullshit. Because I do; there's never a second that I'm not physically or mentally attracted to someone. And that's still not saying much; some guy in my class said something brilliant and i'm like, ''you're hot'' just cuz he's smart. But there have been a lot of mistakes with all those crushes too. If you can even call them that.
I guess you can call them "frienefits" because that's what I'm called to someone. It's really stupid to even start something this close to the end of school for the summer.
((((((((EDIT: i just read this, and realized that it totally sounded like i want a relationship this close to summer. um, yeah right. i'm like the biggest relationship-phobe in my life. and i don't wanna touch it like i'd want to touch the plague. Not with a ten-foot-pole....never. I'd much rather not feel responsible to making someone happy......just sexually ***hahahahhaha***)))))))))
oh summer loves. can you come soon enough???
Something tells me I'll be making a lot of road trips to visit one....and her name's Sarah. Sweet :)