homeless?

[beatles536]

I just got threatened with being kicked out again. Strike two. My mom and I spent most of the day fighting over nothing and my dad being silent about everything. Both are very common situations. I told my mom that I've been spending a lot of time away from the house so we won't fight as much. Tonight my dad told me if I don't apologize and do believe that then I need to pack my bags and leave. Apparently my mom is the one sticking up for me so I won't get kicked out because he is "really pissed." I don't know what the fuck to do to appease these people. I don't know why they keep threatening me with kicking me out, it really hurts and now I see this place as just a shelter that can be taken away from me. I lost the concept of home when he last threatened to kick me out. I can't stay here much longer. Living with my parents is probably the least healthy living situation for me, I can't handle them. Let's see how many times I can cry here. Fuck!
I'm so tired of all of this drama and all of the drama in my life, I'm so, so drained by it all. I don't understand most of it and so much doesn't have a thing to do with me other than I'm trying to be there for someone. I just want to have fun and be happy without all of this bullshit surrounding me. Was it this bad in Juneau? I miss being able to escape to the woods to clear my mind. I need to get back to them. I need to go to my east coast substitute of the ocean, but it's been so damn cold. I think this constant headache I've been having is from all of this. Damn, I need a break.