Jun 29, 2006 23:53
S0 i never update this thing. To me its stupid l0l
so i thought i would now , since im bored&& i have alot on my mind. First of all, this summer is nothing at all what i imagined it to be. I never thought id hate summer this much.. Dont get me wrong, i love the weather but thats about it. And i never thought id once say i wish i was in school, but i kinda do l0l. THeres never ne thing to do. THis is my last summer to party and not be an adult. And fuck, its stupid. Next summer i have to focus on college and jobs and all that shit. The shittiest part about it is my parents are finally letting me do basically whatever i want, and theres nothing. Maybe its just muskegon, or maybe its me . who knows. Summer cel is a bunch of shit to. Where the niggs gather around and be niggs i guess. && nights like this make me want someone to be here with me. I never really thougth id want a boyfriend again but I was wrong. like i would always have something to do. I wouldnt ever be alone, and bored. But I guess ill have to wait. I told myself im not settling for ne one. I want someone who can make me happy and make me laugh and not be an ass. REally i dont even know if theres ne one. So ill wait.
I feel like i have no life. I have no one. And to me thats the worst feeling in the world. I mean I have my friends and i love them, but sometimes that isnt enough. I wish that i would just wake up and a prince would be laying next to me l0l weird. But i do. like when i was little i thought if you really kissed a frog it would turn into a prince, so thats how i got by. Didnt work for long. But i wish it did. Fuck id kiss every frog i found. even a bull frog. idk l0l. S0 hopefully my summer starts soon cuz i dont consider this thing a summer. But life isnt always fair i guess.
But im peacin out.
<3me