when life hands me lemons i make beef stew. i guess?

Jun 29, 2006 23:53

S0 i never update this thing.  To me its stupid l0l
so i thought i would now , since im bored&& i have alot on my mind.  First of all, this summer is nothing at all what i imagined it to be.  I never thought id hate summer this much.. Dont get me wrong, i love the weather but thats about it.  And i never thought id once say i wish i was in school, but i kinda do l0l.  THeres never ne thing to do.  THis is my last summer to party and not be an adult.  And fuck, its stupid.  Next summer i have to focus on college and jobs and all that shit.  The shittiest part about it is my parents are finally letting me do basically whatever i want, and theres nothing.  Maybe its just muskegon, or maybe its me . who knows.  Summer cel is a bunch of shit to.  Where the niggs gather around and be niggs i guess.  && nights like this make me want someone to be here with me.  I never really thougth id want a boyfriend again but I was wrong.  like i would always have something to do.  I wouldnt ever be alone, and bored. But I guess ill have to wait.  I told myself im not settling for ne one.  I want someone who can make me happy and make me laugh and not be an ass. REally i dont even know if theres ne one.  So ill wait. 
I feel like i have no life.  I have no one.  And to me thats the worst feeling in the world.  I mean I have my friends and i love them, but sometimes that isnt enough.  I wish that i would just wake up and a prince would be laying next to me l0l weird.  But i do. like when i was little i thought if you really kissed a frog it would turn into a prince, so thats how i got by.  Didnt work for long.  But i wish it did. Fuck id kiss every frog i found.  even a bull frog. idk l0l.  S0 hopefully my summer starts soon cuz i dont consider this thing a summer. But life isnt always fair i guess.
But im peacin out.
<3me
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