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Well havent updated in awhile. Just thought I'd lay my life down on the line. syke l0l. But really this has alot of feelings along with it, so most people shouldnt read this.
Well its been one year today since me and Bobby broke up. yeah i know i should be over it and i am, it just doesnt seem real. Seems like its been 4 months or somehting idk. I guess life moves fast when your having fun, or somehting like that. REally its sad to me that nothing ever came of what we had, and that i thought for two 1/2 straight years everyday that hes the person I will spend the rest of my life with and had my future planned all out with him. I wish I could of been smarter and waited for the right person. He wasnt, he was no where close to the right person. When i think about it i was with him from 13 till almost 16, he basically shaped who I am, or who I was. And then everything came to an end. Not just one thing ruined it, it was everything. It started ruining since the day it began. Hes moved on now and so have I for the most part. I guess ill always love him but i just have to be strong, like i should of been from the beginning. A new summers coming && hopefully I find someone, or maybe i already found that person. Idk. To me being single gets old after awhile, prlly just because I was in a relationship for so long. But Im just afraid of being in a relationship like i was before, who knows what will happen. Oh yeah and im so excited about the summer, its gonna be great! .. i hope...
Complete and total adoration, My gift to you, my heart was yours,
In ten weeks you shaped it, In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst. Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,
And I still have these memories, But we'll never see what we could have been...
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now? Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go? Remember, cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
I wish I would have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real, You said they were,
What happened?
You were a priority, Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone. *Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled..*
Knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart, I'm just sorry that it wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember these things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said is in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this, But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go? Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Well its been one year today since me and Bobby broke up. yeah i know i should be over it and i am, it just doesnt seem real. Seems like its been 4 months or somehting idk. I guess life moves fast when your having fun, or somehting like that. REally its sad to me that nothing ever came of what we had, and that i thought for two 1/2 straight years everyday that hes the person I will spend the rest of my life with and had my future planned all out with him. I wish I could of been smarter and waited for the right person. He wasnt, he was no where close to the right person. When i think about it i was with him from 13 till almost 16, he basically shaped who I am, or who I was. And then everything came to an end. Not just one thing ruined it, it was everything. It started ruining since the day it began. Hes moved on now and so have I for the most part. I guess ill always love him but i just have to be strong, like i should of been from the beginning. A new summers coming && hopefully I find someone, or maybe i already found that person. Idk. To me being single gets old after awhile, prlly just because I was in a relationship for so long. But Im just afraid of being in a relationship like i was before, who knows what will happen. Oh yeah and im so excited about the summer, its gonna be great! .. i hope...
Complete and total adoration, My gift to you, my heart was yours,
In ten weeks you shaped it, In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst. Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,
And I still have these memories, But we'll never see what we could have been...
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now? Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go? Remember, cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
I wish I would have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real, You said they were,
What happened?
You were a priority, Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone. *Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled..*
Knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart, I'm just sorry that it wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember these things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said is in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this, But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go? Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?