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I was going to write an entry about budget hearings, but something else caught my attention, so budget hearings will have to wait.
There are a lot of human characteristics that annoy me a great deal when I have to deal with them in the people around me. Often, I find that they are linked to a lack of confidence/insecurity on the part of the annoying person, or a deep-rooted jealousy, not of me, but of something basic that can be found in almost anyone who is not the annoying person. When either of these traits is manifested in someone's subconscious, they react in a certain way (or so I've noticed), and the actions that are a result of such feelings drive me crazy.
I hate it when people make the basis of their lives revolve around others. I hate it when people can't be independent and embrace their flaws and find their goals on their own. And I realize it's completely unfair of me to say such things, because those sorts of things are common among everyone, even myself.
Because of that, I think it's probably necessary to amend my statement, or at least put up a disclaimer. It's not the actual feelings that I hate (ie the insecurity, the jealousy, the lack of independence), but rather how they display such feelings. It's not a secret that some people deal with these issues better than others. It's the ones that turn these feelings into immature, irritating, dumb acts that rub me the wrong way.
I really wish I could be more patient. I wish I could take things like this in stride better. But I can't, as hard as I try, and it makes me feel like a complete douche, and more irritated at the person in question for making me feel like a complete douche because of irritating feelings I can't even control.
UGH.
There are a lot of human characteristics that annoy me a great deal when I have to deal with them in the people around me. Often, I find that they are linked to a lack of confidence/insecurity on the part of the annoying person, or a deep-rooted jealousy, not of me, but of something basic that can be found in almost anyone who is not the annoying person. When either of these traits is manifested in someone's subconscious, they react in a certain way (or so I've noticed), and the actions that are a result of such feelings drive me crazy.
I hate it when people make the basis of their lives revolve around others. I hate it when people can't be independent and embrace their flaws and find their goals on their own. And I realize it's completely unfair of me to say such things, because those sorts of things are common among everyone, even myself.
Because of that, I think it's probably necessary to amend my statement, or at least put up a disclaimer. It's not the actual feelings that I hate (ie the insecurity, the jealousy, the lack of independence), but rather how they display such feelings. It's not a secret that some people deal with these issues better than others. It's the ones that turn these feelings into immature, irritating, dumb acts that rub me the wrong way.
I really wish I could be more patient. I wish I could take things like this in stride better. But I can't, as hard as I try, and it makes me feel like a complete douche, and more irritated at the person in question for making me feel like a complete douche because of irritating feelings I can't even control.
UGH.