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the past few days have been a mixture of utter joy and complete psychotic breakdowns. a few days ago jake and i met up around mid town and took the long way back to the parking lot to have lunch. we discussed a lot of good things, things that actually mattered and would make a difference if put into action. we talked a lot about this stuff and it was good. later that night, me and pam dumpster dived some at lassens. got french bread, produce, and chocolate and chocolate covered rasins. it was awesome the chocolate was soo good. the next day i felt akward and was filled with anguish, for what reason i dont know. but nothing happened that day, just the mall and i hate the mall. next day, yesterday, worts feelings i have had in a while. anxiety on the run and not getting any better. i was so bummed out. but then jake showed up at my door at 3 in the morning and that was good. he spent the night.. yey! and here i am. not sure about how i feel, about to bleach his rat tail so we can dye over the green. heres a photo of us..




jake looking so fucking sassy its gross.


me.. um yea.


jason and pam


pam


jason


i wrote all that earlier today. heres some funny old pictures.