what the hell am i doing?
i just pretty much spent the entire latter part of the evening trying to find a template for my website that i bought (and have done absolutely nothing with) and came up with absolutely nothing. I did all this, while I could have been doing something productive, like cleaning my room.. or better yet, WRITING MY RESUME! why am I such a procrastinating idiot? "oh i only have 3 days left of vacation and have done nor attempted to do anything i said i would while i had the time.. maybe i should start now.. wait.. i think looking around the internet for 4 hours for something that I can't do anything with if i find it anyway seems like the smarter plan!" GOD SOMEONE SHOOT ME WITH A BULLET FULL OF COMMON SENSE! and i wonder why I can never accomplish anything I set my mind to.. it's because I have the attention span of an infant and the willpower of a rock.
you know what doesnt help?? the fact that pretty much all my friends are getting to do exactly what they do with no consequence to their job while I'm stuck here with a job that - without exaggeration - runs my life 24/7. Everyone around me is going to all these different places, making all these great memories and I'm complaining on livejournal how my life sucks. AND THAT MAKES MY LIFE SUCK EVEN MORE! what is with this vicious circles that I get thrown into?? is there really anything i can do to make it different?? is there any reason why i keep using two question marks at the end of everything i write?? someone or something needs to come along QUICKLY to break me free of this chain i've somehow gotten myself locked in.
on a more happy note, i am having a good time on my vacation. Though I've done nothing of real importance for myself and my future, I've been quite undepressed and relaxed. i've also gotten lazy and haven't shaved since last week so I'm very dirty looking and probably smell a little. best part? i dont care! muaha.
you know what doesnt help?? the fact that pretty much all my friends are getting to do exactly what they do with no consequence to their job while I'm stuck here with a job that - without exaggeration - runs my life 24/7. Everyone around me is going to all these different places, making all these great memories and I'm complaining on livejournal how my life sucks. AND THAT MAKES MY LIFE SUCK EVEN MORE! what is with this vicious circles that I get thrown into?? is there really anything i can do to make it different?? is there any reason why i keep using two question marks at the end of everything i write?? someone or something needs to come along QUICKLY to break me free of this chain i've somehow gotten myself locked in.
on a more happy note, i am having a good time on my vacation. Though I've done nothing of real importance for myself and my future, I've been quite undepressed and relaxed. i've also gotten lazy and haven't shaved since last week so I'm very dirty looking and probably smell a little. best part? i dont care! muaha.