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it feels like forever since i've written in these virtual pages. i started this journals over two and a half years ago, and i'm starting to think this might be a good time to end it for good. it was nice to write in freshman year to keep in touch with liz and sui, but as friendships disolve, people lose touch, and time just separates people, it because useless for that. then i used it to write basically about my current romantic interest, spilling out how and who i cared about. and now that my love life is truly fucked up, and i'm starting to see the pointlessness of it all, that reason for writing doesn't make all that sense either. So basically the only thing i have left to share is how depressed this world makes me. but there is only so much you can say about that until you start screaming in the rain. and i've cried too many tears looking at this update page to last a life time. and i have another journal, more private, more real. so what am i doing still connected to this machine in front of me. it's growing colder everyday to me. it was a good run while it lasted, i met so many new amazing people, but there comes a point where you feel you need to say goodbye. when i started writing this i was just going to write about how i felt i should end it, but now i am ending it. it was a great run, and thank you all who had commented and participated in my life through LJ.
so i guess i should end it in true beastofburden fashion with a song lyric and a poem...
Something Corporate~ hurricane
Shake down you make me break
For goodness sake
I think I'm on the edge
Of something new with you
Shout out don't drown the sound
I'll drown you out
You'll never scream so loud
As I want to scream with you
Standing there with your smile blinding
Your eyes from seeing
My face as I'm dying
To figure out a girl
But she drifts so far away
I'm on her coast
So maybe I should stay
And map around your world
So Don't Say
"These currents are still killing me"
And you can't explain
But the wind went and pulled me
Into the hurricane
Stand up don't make a sound
Your ears might bleed
There are sweet flourescent enemies
That live inside me
The world moves faster than I knew
Not fast enough to not creep up on you
And the space we put between
So pull me under your weather patterns
Your cold fronts and the rain don't matter
Becuase the sun burns what I needed
So Don't Say
"These currents are still killing me"
And you can't explain
But the wind went and pulled me
Into the hurricane
You don't do it on purpose
But you make me shake
Now I count the hours 'til you wake
With your babies breath
Breathe symphonies
Come on sweet catastrophe
Maybe this time I can follow through
I can feel complete
Stop paying dues
Stop the rain from falling
Keep my oceans calm
This time I know nothings wrong
So Don't Say
"These currents are still killing me"
And you can't explain
But the wind went and pulled me
Into the hurricane
Robert Frost~Stopping By Woods On A Snowy Evening
"The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep
And miles to go before I sleep."
so i guess i should end it in true beastofburden fashion with a song lyric and a poem...
Something Corporate~ hurricane
Shake down you make me break
For goodness sake
I think I'm on the edge
Of something new with you
Shout out don't drown the sound
I'll drown you out
You'll never scream so loud
As I want to scream with you
Standing there with your smile blinding
Your eyes from seeing
My face as I'm dying
To figure out a girl
But she drifts so far away
I'm on her coast
So maybe I should stay
And map around your world
So Don't Say
"These currents are still killing me"
And you can't explain
But the wind went and pulled me
Into the hurricane
Stand up don't make a sound
Your ears might bleed
There are sweet flourescent enemies
That live inside me
The world moves faster than I knew
Not fast enough to not creep up on you
And the space we put between
So pull me under your weather patterns
Your cold fronts and the rain don't matter
Becuase the sun burns what I needed
So Don't Say
"These currents are still killing me"
And you can't explain
But the wind went and pulled me
Into the hurricane
You don't do it on purpose
But you make me shake
Now I count the hours 'til you wake
With your babies breath
Breathe symphonies
Come on sweet catastrophe
Maybe this time I can follow through
I can feel complete
Stop paying dues
Stop the rain from falling
Keep my oceans calm
This time I know nothings wrong
So Don't Say
"These currents are still killing me"
And you can't explain
But the wind went and pulled me
Into the hurricane
Robert Frost~Stopping By Woods On A Snowy Evening
"The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep
And miles to go before I sleep."