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Last night was so much fun. I went to Shbooms and itwas a blast....i saw a lot of people there i knew...one i particular made me smile :)
Today....pretty fun. Stayed home in the morning and watched the movie "rockstar" which i thought was pretty good....not to mention it had mark walberg....who i met whn i was a child....good times. Then randomly, my brother asked me out to lunch and said he would pay....what a great brother! We went to the new Jade 2 and it kicked ass. Then we drove around in his 1988 Lincoln Towncar making random noises with this loud noise machine he as that's hooked up to his car....the front gill being the speaker. We played the ice cream truck song for a while and then i discovered the microphone that hooked up to it....oh boy did i have fun with that...yelling at people as drove by.Best part...my brother almost rearended this lady, but instead slammed his brakes and went off the road...now we all know how i get in cars...really nervous. SO i semi-tweaked and then picked up the microphone and was like "haha....just kiding guys!" priceless moment!
The end of the day sucked...mymom has been on my case about everything today. And it was just to the point where I felt like absolute shit....like everyone has been on m case. I feel as though i suck at life and not just figuratively....i really hate that feeling. Im not in school, i dont have a car, i have no money because im giving it all to my mom for bill, the mortgage, her gas so she can get to work....it sucks. I hate myself physically for a lot of different reasons....which many people are proving to be true. I went two weeks with onlyeating apples and grapes and drinnking water and diet green tea and still i feel like shit. i dont know what it will take to make me feel better about myself physically and emotionally.....but something's got to soon....im trying so hard to put up a front and im just getting tired of it....i dunno....
Today....pretty fun. Stayed home in the morning and watched the movie "rockstar" which i thought was pretty good....not to mention it had mark walberg....who i met whn i was a child....good times. Then randomly, my brother asked me out to lunch and said he would pay....what a great brother! We went to the new Jade 2 and it kicked ass. Then we drove around in his 1988 Lincoln Towncar making random noises with this loud noise machine he as that's hooked up to his car....the front gill being the speaker. We played the ice cream truck song for a while and then i discovered the microphone that hooked up to it....oh boy did i have fun with that...yelling at people as drove by.Best part...my brother almost rearended this lady, but instead slammed his brakes and went off the road...now we all know how i get in cars...really nervous. SO i semi-tweaked and then picked up the microphone and was like "haha....just kiding guys!" priceless moment!
The end of the day sucked...mymom has been on my case about everything today. And it was just to the point where I felt like absolute shit....like everyone has been on m case. I feel as though i suck at life and not just figuratively....i really hate that feeling. Im not in school, i dont have a car, i have no money because im giving it all to my mom for bill, the mortgage, her gas so she can get to work....it sucks. I hate myself physically for a lot of different reasons....which many people are proving to be true. I went two weeks with onlyeating apples and grapes and drinnking water and diet green tea and still i feel like shit. i dont know what it will take to make me feel better about myself physically and emotionally.....but something's got to soon....im trying so hard to put up a front and im just getting tired of it....i dunno....