You do a lot of thinking when all you can do is lay down
Thanks everyone for the well wishes. I'm sorry I didn't get a chance to interact with you (sorry Sean!), but yesterday was pretty much a wash. As the afternoon/evening wore on, all I could do was basically watch DVD's and breathe. I felt a little guilty for making posts that basically amount to saying things like "Ugh, I'm sick! Waaah!". But sometimes, you really DO need people to just say stuff like "HUGZ" and "Get Well!" The doctor gave me some antibiotics and some stuff for the congestion and I still feel like crap, but not as crappy as yesterday.
On the point of watching DVD's, I ended up giving in and watching the very first season of Project Runway. I've never seen the show in my life and I TOTALLY LOVED IT. Now, I know I'm discussing ancient history by now, LOL, but I'd like to share some observations.
I could really identify with the issues some of the contestants were going through. The one I could relate to the most was Starr. She was eliminated early on. She was the one who was a lawyer (??) and had a lot of investment in her law career, but her heart was in designing clothes. Her situation is one I can absolutely relate to 100%. It's exactly what I'm going through, but instead of clothing, my thing is food. The other thing about Starr that I could relate to a great deal is the fact that, as a designer, she really didn't have a lot of confidence in her abilities. I think that I suffer from that as well. I'm really hard on myself and I don't think I have a lot of confidence in my abilities. It made me think of the definition of "confidence" and what it could mean to me.
I HATE cocky, boisterous people. I read it as an empty shell: they make a lot of noise about how good they are, but can they back it up? Often they cannot. So THAT is not confidence to me. I kept thinking about it and it must boil down to a combination of possessing an ACTUAL body of knowledge and skills as they relate to your field and sheer faith in yourself. So you tell yourself that you rock even when evidence points to the contrary.
The other thing I was pondering had to do with Wendy. She was stuck in this thought pattern that she was old and this was her last chance to make it big. I can understand that as well and it's something I've thought about. I'm 36, starting late in life in this new career. How old am I going to be when I'm more 'experienced' and still working 50-60 hour weeks? These are logical and reasonable thoughts. The best I can offer as counterpoints is, simply, that I love it. Also, I've encountered examples of people that "bloom" late in life and go on to have very successful second and third careers. Finally, there's people who DO start early in life in a particular field and never make it, so the "ageism" rationale that Wendy was so stuck on was kind of flawed. The elements that determine success are the same whether you are younger or older: commitment, discipline, skill, passion... So it may not be too late for me after all.
Finally, "AUSTIN WAS ROBBED!! WENDY IS A CALCULATING, BACKSTABBING BIOTCH!!!1"
I can't wait for season two.
On the point of watching DVD's, I ended up giving in and watching the very first season of Project Runway. I've never seen the show in my life and I TOTALLY LOVED IT. Now, I know I'm discussing ancient history by now, LOL, but I'd like to share some observations.
I could really identify with the issues some of the contestants were going through. The one I could relate to the most was Starr. She was eliminated early on. She was the one who was a lawyer (??) and had a lot of investment in her law career, but her heart was in designing clothes. Her situation is one I can absolutely relate to 100%. It's exactly what I'm going through, but instead of clothing, my thing is food. The other thing about Starr that I could relate to a great deal is the fact that, as a designer, she really didn't have a lot of confidence in her abilities. I think that I suffer from that as well. I'm really hard on myself and I don't think I have a lot of confidence in my abilities. It made me think of the definition of "confidence" and what it could mean to me.
I HATE cocky, boisterous people. I read it as an empty shell: they make a lot of noise about how good they are, but can they back it up? Often they cannot. So THAT is not confidence to me. I kept thinking about it and it must boil down to a combination of possessing an ACTUAL body of knowledge and skills as they relate to your field and sheer faith in yourself. So you tell yourself that you rock even when evidence points to the contrary.
The other thing I was pondering had to do with Wendy. She was stuck in this thought pattern that she was old and this was her last chance to make it big. I can understand that as well and it's something I've thought about. I'm 36, starting late in life in this new career. How old am I going to be when I'm more 'experienced' and still working 50-60 hour weeks? These are logical and reasonable thoughts. The best I can offer as counterpoints is, simply, that I love it. Also, I've encountered examples of people that "bloom" late in life and go on to have very successful second and third careers. Finally, there's people who DO start early in life in a particular field and never make it, so the "ageism" rationale that Wendy was so stuck on was kind of flawed. The elements that determine success are the same whether you are younger or older: commitment, discipline, skill, passion... So it may not be too late for me after all.
Finally, "AUSTIN WAS ROBBED!! WENDY IS A CALCULATING, BACKSTABBING BIOTCH!!!1"
I can't wait for season two.