Love hurts.
So the vet came back into the office with fat girl and his assistant. He had taken her outside to walk her to see how bad her walking was which was pretty bad. She couldn't even stand. Things have gotten worse for her these past couple weeks from having wobbly hind legs to not being able to stand at all. He placed her back on the counter and said, "Well, this is never an easy thing to talk about but.."
And i knew it. I knew he was going to tell me her degenerative spine issue had worsened times 10. No ability to walk with incontinence right around the corner. No pain but a lot of inconvenience for fat girl and heartbreaking for us to see. I knew he was going to tell me it was time to let her go. I nodded because I agreed with him that it is totally inhumane to keep her around the way she was. Everything he said contained logic that I related to. So I nodded my head and tried not to notice my eyes suddenly watering up. I nodded some more hoping for some reason it would stop my eyes from growing redder and moister by the second.
But it was no use. I took one look at fat girl's sweet face and just buried my head in my hand and cried.
The vet was trying to verbally console me. His assistant was crying too which only made me want to cry more. So i did. My mom was stoic. I continued to cry. My mom talked to my siblings on my cell. I continued to cry. I drove us home and missed a couple turns because I was so out of it. Pulled over on the side of the road to have another cry.
Work tomorrow should be a blast.
And i knew it. I knew he was going to tell me her degenerative spine issue had worsened times 10. No ability to walk with incontinence right around the corner. No pain but a lot of inconvenience for fat girl and heartbreaking for us to see. I knew he was going to tell me it was time to let her go. I nodded because I agreed with him that it is totally inhumane to keep her around the way she was. Everything he said contained logic that I related to. So I nodded my head and tried not to notice my eyes suddenly watering up. I nodded some more hoping for some reason it would stop my eyes from growing redder and moister by the second.
But it was no use. I took one look at fat girl's sweet face and just buried my head in my hand and cried.
The vet was trying to verbally console me. His assistant was crying too which only made me want to cry more. So i did. My mom was stoic. I continued to cry. My mom talked to my siblings on my cell. I continued to cry. I drove us home and missed a couple turns because I was so out of it. Pulled over on the side of the road to have another cry.
Work tomorrow should be a blast.