WHAT THE HELL!
OK SO FRIDAY I HAD A GREAT NIGHT WITH GERMAN! WE WENT TO JUAREZ AFTER HE GOT OUT OF WORK TO GO PICK UP HIS GLASSES AND AFTER THAT WE WENT TO AJUAS TO EAT AND THEN WE WENT TO CHAMUCO'S AND HUNG OUT AND DRANK DOUBLE SHOTS OF BUCANAS WITH SPRITE. WE ENDED RUNNING UP THE BILL TO LIKE $62! HAHAHA WE ARE SUCH DRUNKIES! ANYWAY AFTER THAT WE CME BAK TO EP AND HIT UP MAVRICK'S WHERE WE CONTINUED TO DRINK. OH YEAH AND HE FINALLY GAVE ME MY PRESENT! IT WAS THE CUTEST LITTLE BEANIE BABY MONKEY. HE BOUGHT IT FOR ME TO PUT IN MY TRUCK. AWWW QUE CUTE. ALL IN ALL I HAD A BLAST HANGIN OUT WITH GERMAN THAT NIGHT.
SAT NIGHT WE WENT TO THE G2 WHERE GERMAN LOCKED MY KEYS IN THE TRUCK WHICH SUCKED ASS BECAUSE WE DIDN'T END UP GETTING HOME TILL 5 I THE MORNIN!!!!!! HE HAD LEFT THE KEYS RIGHT ON THE DRIVERS SEAT AND MY MOM HAD TKEN A SLEEPING PILL SP SHE COULDNT BRING ME THE SPARE. SO I CALLED GEICO AND THEY SAID THAT THE LOCKSMITH WOULD BE THERE IN 30 MINS. OK SO THIS WAS LIKE AT 2. 3:30 ROLLS AROUND AND STILL NO F-ING LOCKSMITH SO WE WALK OVER TO THE DUNKIN DOUGHNUTS ACROSS THE STREET AND GERMAN CALLS THE LOCKSMITH AND THEY TOLD HIM THAT THEY HAD GONE THE WRONG PLACE N THAT THEY WOULD BE THERE LIKE IN 30 MIN. SO WE ARE WAITING AND FINALLY THEY SHOW UP. SO I REACH UNDER MY SEAT FOR MY PURSE AND TO MY SURPRISE MY PURSE ND MY KEYS ARE GONE SO I AM FREAKIN OUT BECAUSE I DONT KNOW WHERE THE HELL MY THINGS ARE AND FINALLY AFTER LIKE 15 MIN I REALIZE - WAIT MAYBE MY MOM CAME AFTER ALL- SO I CALL HER AND SHE TELLS ME THAT SHE DID COME AND THAT SHE HAS MY STUFF. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
SO KNOW WE FINALLY GET THE STUPID TRUCK OPEN BUT WE HAVE NO DAMN KEYS TO GO NE WHERE!!!!! DAMN IT!!!! SO SHE SAYS SHE IS ON HER WAY AND BY THIS POINT I AM JUST PISSD AND TOTALLY TAKIN OUT ON M MOM WHICH I FEEL REALLY BAD ABOUT NOW. SO FINALLY AFTER AN HR MY MOM SHOWS UP AND I AM ABLE TO TAKE GERMAN HOME AND GO HOME MYSELF. NOW THAT NIGHT SEEMED LIKE IT LASTED FOREVER!
SUNDAY LIZ GABY AND I HAD A GREAT BREAKFAST AT IHOP AND AFTER THAT LIZ AND I JUST HUNG OUT ALL DAY WHICH WAS GREAT FOR ME CUZ I HADNT SPENT TIME WITH HER FOR LIKE A WEEK. AWWW I MISSED MY COW! SO LATER ON THAT NIGHT LIZ JOE GERMAN AND I HUNG OUT. WE WERE GONNA GO TO MAVRICK'S WHICH NOW I JUST WISH THEY WOULD HAVE LET US STAY BUT NO THAT STUPID HOE HAD TO CARD ME AND WE ENDED UP GOING TO APPLEBEE'S. SO ON OUR WAY TO AB'S I WAS ALL I HOPE DENISE ISNT THERE CUZ SHE DOESNT LIKE ME AND GERMAN WAS ALL WHY AND I WAS ALL BECAUSE SHE IS STUPID AND HER BABY'S DADDY IS MY EX. SO AFTER I SAID THAT GERMAN WAS ALL OK DANIELLE JUST TELL ME RIGHT NOW WHO ELSE HAVE U BEEN WITH THAT I KNOW SO THAT THE NEXT TIME THAT I WONT FEEL STUPID IF SOME ONE SAYS OH YEAH I WENT OUT WITH HER TOO! SO THAT FUCKIN PISSED THE CRAP OUT OF ME CUZ I TOOK IT THE WRONG WAY AND I THOUGHT THAT HE WAS IMPLING THAT I WAS A HOE ( LATER I FOUND OUT HE WAN'T)SO I WAS ALL WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT MEAN AND HE WAS ALL JUST TELL ME U ELSE U HAVE BEEN WITH! - OK BUT DONT THINK HE IS SAYING THIS ALL NICE, NO HE IS YELLING AT ME SO THATS WHY IAM GETTING PISSED OFF TO. SO BY THIS TIME WE ARE AT AB'S ALREADY SO I GET OUT OF MY TRUCK AND JUST WALK OFF ALL PISSED. WE GET INSIDE AND I TELL LIZ TO GO WITH ME TO THE RR. SO I TOLD HER WHAT HAPPEN AND SHE WAS ALL JUST TALK TO HIM ABOUT IT. SOWE GET BCK TO THE TABLE AND HE ASKS ME IS I AM MADE AND I TOLD HIM THAT I WAS JUST REALLY OFFENDED BY WHAT HE AKED ME. AND HE WAS ALL I DONT SEE WHY AND I DONT SEE THE POINT IN U WALKIN OFF ALL PISSED OFF. AND I WAS ALL WELL WHAT U THINK I'M A BIG HOE OR SOMETHING AND HE WAS ALL NO IT WAS JUST A SIMPLE QUES AND I JUST WANTED TO KNOW WHO ELSE U HAVE BEEN WITH AND I WAS ALL RICKY AND MARCO ARE THE ONLY OTHER ONES U KNOW. AND THEN HE SAYS " JUST TELL ME SOMETHING, DID U GO OUT WITH RICKY WHEN I KNEW HIM?" AND I WAS ALL NO DUDDE THIS WAS LIKE 3 YRS AGO U DIDNT EVEN KNOW HIM THEN!!!! U SWEAR I JUST WENT OUT WITH HIM BECAUSE HE KNEW U!!!!! AND HE WAS ALL OK OK THATS ALL I WANTED TO KNOW. SO THE REST OF THE TIME AT AB'S HE JUST COMPLETELY IGNORED ME AND WAS ONLY TALKING TO LIZ. SO THEN ASHTON COMES OUT ON TV AND I AM ALL AWWWWW ASHTON AND JOE WAS ALL I THINK TARA REED IS HOT AND GERMAN WAS ALL NO SHE ISNT SHANNON ELIZABTH IS AND SO THEY JUST CONTINUED TALKIN ABOUT THAT. (OK REMEBER THIS PART CUZ IT COMES UP LATER) SO THEN WE DECIDE TO LEAVE AND WE GET IN MY TRUCK AND HE ISNT TALKIN AT ALL THEN FINALLY HE SAYS "THIS IS WEIRD" SO I WAS ALL WELL THEN TALK TO ME AN HE WAS ALL WELL WHAT DO U WANT ME TO SAY AND I WAS ALL I DONT CARE JUST TALK TO ME. SO BY THIS POINT I DONT EVEN CARE CUZ I AM ALL PISSED OFF. SO WE GET TO HIS HOUSE AND HE KEEPS SAYING THAT EVERYTHING IS WEIRD NOW SO I WAS ALL WELL THEN TALK TO ME! AND HE WAS ALL WELL WHAT DO U WANT ME TO SAY! AND THEN HE SAYS OK FINE U WANNA TALK LETS TALK AND JUST GET EVERYTHING OUT IN THE OPEN! NOW!AND I WAS ALL OH WO WO!!! SO BY THIS TIME HE IS BACK TO YELLING AT ME AGAIN BUT ALL UGLY STYLE THIS TIME. SO HE TELLS ME " OK LETS TALK ABOUT THIS CUZ WHATS GOING ON RIGHT NOW IS THE SAME SHIT THAT HAS HAPPEND IN MY PAT RELATIONSHIPS AND I DONT WANT THISTO HAPPEN AGAIN!" AND I WAS ALL OK WHAT? AND HE WAS ALL I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND WHY GIRLS HAVE TO SAY STUPID SHIT THAT GETS THEM IN TROUBLE! AND I WAS ALL EXCUSE ME??? AND HE WAS ALL "WELLLIKE WHY DID U HAVE TO TELL ME THAT ABOUT U AND DENISE NOT LIKING EACHOTHER BECAUSE OF MARCO. I LIKE DENISE,SHE HAS ALWAYS BEEN COOL WITH ME AND NOW THAT I KNOW SHE DOESNT LIKE U ITS GOING TO MAKE THING WEIRD EVERYTIME WE GO TO AB'S." HE WAS ALL " NOW I AM ALWAYS GONNA FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE AND THERE WAS NO REASON FOR U SAYING THAT." THEN I WAS ALL WELL I AM SORRY BUT I AM AN OPEN PERSON AND I I LIKE TO BE OPEN WITH OTHER POEPLE INCLUDING U. I TRUST UAND I THOUGHT THAT I COULD TALK TO U ABOUT NE THIGN BUT I GUESS NOT! AND HE WAS ALL WELL U NEED TO LEARN THAT SOMETIMES U JUST NEED TO KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT!AND I YELLED "EXCUSE ME WHAT!" AND HE WAS ALL FINE U WANNA BE OPEN FINE WE'LL BE OPEN BUT LETS JUST SEE IF U CAN HANDLE IT WHEN I AM OPEN WITH U! AND I WAS ALL OK WHAT DO U MEAN GIVE ME AN EXAMPLE AND HE WAS ALL OK LIKE IN MY PAST RELATIONSHIPS WHEN WE GO TO THE MOVIES AND I SEE SHANNON ELIZABETH AND I'M ALL DAMN SHES FUCKING HOT, TELL ME WOULD U NOT GET OFFENDED BY THAT? AND I WAS ALL AH NO!!!! WHY WOULD I! IN THE FIRST PLACE U ARE NEVER GONNA GET HER SO WHY THE HELL AM GONNA WORRY ABOUT SOMETHING THAT IS NEVER GONNA HAPPEN!!!!!! AND IN THE SECOND PLACE U ARE OBVIOUSLY WITH ME FOR A REASON BECAUSE U LIKE ME SO WHY THE HELL SHOULD ICARE IF U SAY THAT. AND HE WAS ALL WELL BECAUSE I THINK SHE IS BEAUTIFUL AND THAT IS MY DREAM GIRL AND U LOOK NOTHING LIKE HER. AND I WAS ALL OH MY GOD GERMAN SHE IS A MOVIE STAR!!!!! WHO THE FUCK CARES IF U THINK SHES HOT OR NOT!!!! I DONT CARE IF U LIKE HER AND I LOOK NOTHIN LIKE HER BECAUSE U ARE NEVER GONNA BE WITH HER NE WAY SO WHY SHOULD I STRESS OVER SOMETHIN THAT IS NEVER GONNA HAPPEN!!!!!!!! AND I WAS ALL DO U GET OFFENDED WHEN I TALK ABOUT ASHTON, DAVE, OR VIN ? AND HE WAS ALL NO AND I WAS ALL WELL THEN WHY THE HELL WOUL I??? AND HE WAS ALL OK WELL I JUST THINK ITS DISRESPECTFUL, I MEAN EVERYTIME THEY COME OUT YOUR ALWAYS LIKE AWWW ASHTON OR WHOEVER AND I JUST FEEL LIKE SAYING OK ALREADY WHY DONT U JUST THROW YOURSELF AT THEM!!!!! LOL!!!!! OH MY GOD I STARTED LAUGHING WHEN HE SAID THAT!!!! THAT IS THE STUPIDEST THING I HAVE EVER HEARD!!!!! DONT UGUYS THINK!!!!! SO NE WAY I WAS ALL OK I'M SORRY I WONT DO THAT NE MORE AND HE WAS ALL NO CUZ I DONT WANT U TO CHANGE FOR ME. I AM NOT TRYINGTO CHANGE U AND I NEVER WANT U TO TRY AND CHANGE ME. SO WHEN HE SAID THAT OH MAN IT PISSED ME OFF AND I STARTED YELLING BACK AND I WAS ALL U KNOW WHAT U DONT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT ME TRYING TO CHANGE U BECAUSE I LET U KNOW THAT FROM THE BEGINNING THAT I WAS NOT LIKE THAT!!!!! I AM WHO I AM AND WETHER U LIKE IT OR NOT THATS WHO I AM ALWAYS GONNA BE AND I WILL NEVER CHANGE FOR NE ONE AND IN THAT SAME RESPECT I WILL NEVER TRY AND CHANGE NE ONE ELSE BECAUSE WHEN I LIKE SOMEONE I LIKE THEM FOR WHOM THEY ARE AND WHEN SOME ONE LIKES ME THEY ARE GONNA LIKE ME FOR WHO I AM SO U DONT EVER HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT THAT WITH ME! AND HE WAS ALL OK OK .SO AFTER I SAID THAT HE WAS HE DIDNT WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT NE MORE SO HE PUT HIS HEAD ON MY SHOLDER AND OUT OF NOWHERE HE WAS ALL "I'M MAD!" AND HE GETS UP AND I AM LIKE AHHHHH GREAT WHY R U MAD???? AND HE WAS ALL I DON KNOW I AM JUT REALLY PISSED OFF!!!! I FEEL SO ANGRY INSIDE LIKE I WANNA KICK SOMEONES ASS REALLY BAD!!!! AND I WAS ALL OK DID I MAKE U FEEL THIS WAY? AND HE WAS ALL NO I JUST DO. THEN HE JUST GRABBED MY FACE AND STARTED KISSING MY ALL CRAZY MAD STYLE. HE WAS KISSNG ME REALLY HARD!!! IT SCARED ME! NOW THAT WAS FREAKY!!!! AND NOT IN A GOOD WAY. SO AFTER THAT I WAS ALL OK AND HE WAS ALL WHAT WHATS WRONG WITH U ADN I WAS ALL WELL WHAT DO U THINK I FEEL LIKE SHIT GERMAN AND HE WAS ALL WHY AND I WAS ALL I JUST FEEL LIKE I FUCKED EVERYTHIG UPFOR US AND HE WAS ALL NO U DIDNT ANDI WAS ALL DO STILL LIKE ME AND HE WAS ALL YEAH A LITTLE BIT AND THEN HE GOES OK I HAVE TO GO NOW I'M TIRED. AND HE GETS OUT OF THE TRUCK ANDI WAS ALL WHAT THE FUCK SO I WAS ALL GERMAN WAIT SO I GET HIS CD OUT AND I WAS HERE U FORGOT YOUR CD AND BY THID TIME HE WAS ON MY SIDE AND HE WAS ALL NO I DONT WNT IT ANDI WAS ALL OK WELL ITS YOUR CD, AND HE WAS ALL NO I DONT WANT IT IF U GIVE IT TO ME I AM GOING TO THROW IT AWAy! SO I WAS ALL OK (WEIRDO!)SO I WAS ALL SO U DONT LIKE ME NE MORE AND HE WAS ALL GOD DAINELLE I WAS JUST PLAYING ANDI WAS ALL NO U WERENT U AINT GOTTA LIE TO KICK IT! SO HE WAS ALL AHHH WHATS WRONG WITH U!!!! SO AFTER THAT I STARTED CRYING CUZ I FELT LIKE SHIT AND HE WAS ALL NO STOP CRYING JUST FORGET EVERYTHING I SAID AND I WAS ALL WHATEVER I'LL LET U GO. SO I LEFT. SO I CRIED FOR A LITTLE BIT AND THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN IJUST GOT REALLY PISSDED AND STAYED PISSED EVEN UNTILL THE NEXT DAY.THEN THE NEXT DAY I TALKED TO MY MOM ABOUT IT AND I TOLD HER HOW I WASN'T EVEN SAD ABOUT WHAT HAD HAPPEND AND SHE SAID THAT THE REASON I WAS SO MAD WAS BECAUSE I REALLY LIKE HIM AND THAT I WAS REALLY JUST SCARED BECAUSE I THOUGHT THAT HE WAS GONNA BREAK UP WITH ME AND THAT I WAS JUST TRYING TO BE MAD SO THAT I WOULDNT BE SO HURT. GOSH SHE IS SO SMART BECAUSE THAT WAS EXACTLY THE REASON! IN EVERY RELATIONSHIP THAT I HAVE BEEN IN I HAVE ALWAYS GONE INTO IT NOT BEONG HAPPY AND JUST ALWAYS WAITING FOR THE BREAK UP NOT EVEN LETTING MY SELF BE HAPPY. BUT THIS TIME I COMPLETELY WENT INTO THIS RELATIONSHIP BEING HAPPY AND NOT EVEN THINKG ABOUT THAT. AND WHEN THIS HAPPEND IT COMPLETELY BROUGHT ME BCK O SQUARE ONE. SO MY MOM TOLD ME TO SNAP OUT OF IT BECAUSE THIS RELATIONSHIP HAD POTENTIAL AND SHE DIDNT WANT TO SEE IT GO DOWN THE DRAIN BECAUSE OF SOME STUPID FIGHT. WOW! MY MOM HAS NEVER SAID THAT BEFORE! SO I TOOKTHAT AS A HUGE SIGN AND I DID EXACTLY WAHT SE SAID.SO NOW EVERYTHING IS BACK TONORAML BETWEEN GERMAN AND I, WELL HE 'S DEPRESSED AND HE REFUSES TO TELL ME WHY BUT HE SAID ITS NOTHIN THAT I HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT WHICH IS WEIRD BECAUSE HE SAID PART OF IT HAS TO DO WITH ME BUT THAT THERE I NOTHIN THAT I HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT- IT REALLY DOESNT MAKE SENSE TO ME BUT WHATEVER I AM NOT EVEN GONNA CONCERN MYSELF WITH THAT! SO HOPEFULLY EVERYTHING CONTINUS TO GO GREAT CUZ I HAVE A FEELING ABOUT THIS ONE GUYS (EVEN THOUGH HE IS A LITTLE CRAZY!) SO I WILL START TOMORROW OFF AS A NEW DAY AND BE GREATFUL TO GOD FOR ALL THE BLESSINGS IN MY LIFE AND I WILL NOT DWELL ON THE PAST BECAUSE WELL FUCK IT RIGHT ITS ALREADY OVER AND DONE WITH! SHIT HAPPENS!
SAT NIGHT WE WENT TO THE G2 WHERE GERMAN LOCKED MY KEYS IN THE TRUCK WHICH SUCKED ASS BECAUSE WE DIDN'T END UP GETTING HOME TILL 5 I THE MORNIN!!!!!! HE HAD LEFT THE KEYS RIGHT ON THE DRIVERS SEAT AND MY MOM HAD TKEN A SLEEPING PILL SP SHE COULDNT BRING ME THE SPARE. SO I CALLED GEICO AND THEY SAID THAT THE LOCKSMITH WOULD BE THERE IN 30 MINS. OK SO THIS WAS LIKE AT 2. 3:30 ROLLS AROUND AND STILL NO F-ING LOCKSMITH SO WE WALK OVER TO THE DUNKIN DOUGHNUTS ACROSS THE STREET AND GERMAN CALLS THE LOCKSMITH AND THEY TOLD HIM THAT THEY HAD GONE THE WRONG PLACE N THAT THEY WOULD BE THERE LIKE IN 30 MIN. SO WE ARE WAITING AND FINALLY THEY SHOW UP. SO I REACH UNDER MY SEAT FOR MY PURSE AND TO MY SURPRISE MY PURSE ND MY KEYS ARE GONE SO I AM FREAKIN OUT BECAUSE I DONT KNOW WHERE THE HELL MY THINGS ARE AND FINALLY AFTER LIKE 15 MIN I REALIZE - WAIT MAYBE MY MOM CAME AFTER ALL- SO I CALL HER AND SHE TELLS ME THAT SHE DID COME AND THAT SHE HAS MY STUFF. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
SO KNOW WE FINALLY GET THE STUPID TRUCK OPEN BUT WE HAVE NO DAMN KEYS TO GO NE WHERE!!!!! DAMN IT!!!! SO SHE SAYS SHE IS ON HER WAY AND BY THIS POINT I AM JUST PISSD AND TOTALLY TAKIN OUT ON M MOM WHICH I FEEL REALLY BAD ABOUT NOW. SO FINALLY AFTER AN HR MY MOM SHOWS UP AND I AM ABLE TO TAKE GERMAN HOME AND GO HOME MYSELF. NOW THAT NIGHT SEEMED LIKE IT LASTED FOREVER!
SUNDAY LIZ GABY AND I HAD A GREAT BREAKFAST AT IHOP AND AFTER THAT LIZ AND I JUST HUNG OUT ALL DAY WHICH WAS GREAT FOR ME CUZ I HADNT SPENT TIME WITH HER FOR LIKE A WEEK. AWWW I MISSED MY COW! SO LATER ON THAT NIGHT LIZ JOE GERMAN AND I HUNG OUT. WE WERE GONNA GO TO MAVRICK'S WHICH NOW I JUST WISH THEY WOULD HAVE LET US STAY BUT NO THAT STUPID HOE HAD TO CARD ME AND WE ENDED UP GOING TO APPLEBEE'S. SO ON OUR WAY TO AB'S I WAS ALL I HOPE DENISE ISNT THERE CUZ SHE DOESNT LIKE ME AND GERMAN WAS ALL WHY AND I WAS ALL BECAUSE SHE IS STUPID AND HER BABY'S DADDY IS MY EX. SO AFTER I SAID THAT GERMAN WAS ALL OK DANIELLE JUST TELL ME RIGHT NOW WHO ELSE HAVE U BEEN WITH THAT I KNOW SO THAT THE NEXT TIME THAT I WONT FEEL STUPID IF SOME ONE SAYS OH YEAH I WENT OUT WITH HER TOO! SO THAT FUCKIN PISSED THE CRAP OUT OF ME CUZ I TOOK IT THE WRONG WAY AND I THOUGHT THAT HE WAS IMPLING THAT I WAS A HOE ( LATER I FOUND OUT HE WAN'T)SO I WAS ALL WHAT THE HELL DOES THAT MEAN AND HE WAS ALL JUST TELL ME U ELSE U HAVE BEEN WITH! - OK BUT DONT THINK HE IS SAYING THIS ALL NICE, NO HE IS YELLING AT ME SO THATS WHY IAM GETTING PISSED OFF TO. SO BY THIS TIME WE ARE AT AB'S ALREADY SO I GET OUT OF MY TRUCK AND JUST WALK OFF ALL PISSED. WE GET INSIDE AND I TELL LIZ TO GO WITH ME TO THE RR. SO I TOLD HER WHAT HAPPEN AND SHE WAS ALL JUST TALK TO HIM ABOUT IT. SOWE GET BCK TO THE TABLE AND HE ASKS ME IS I AM MADE AND I TOLD HIM THAT I WAS JUST REALLY OFFENDED BY WHAT HE AKED ME. AND HE WAS ALL I DONT SEE WHY AND I DONT SEE THE POINT IN U WALKIN OFF ALL PISSED OFF. AND I WAS ALL WELL WHAT U THINK I'M A BIG HOE OR SOMETHING AND HE WAS ALL NO IT WAS JUST A SIMPLE QUES AND I JUST WANTED TO KNOW WHO ELSE U HAVE BEEN WITH AND I WAS ALL RICKY AND MARCO ARE THE ONLY OTHER ONES U KNOW. AND THEN HE SAYS " JUST TELL ME SOMETHING, DID U GO OUT WITH RICKY WHEN I KNEW HIM?" AND I WAS ALL NO DUDDE THIS WAS LIKE 3 YRS AGO U DIDNT EVEN KNOW HIM THEN!!!! U SWEAR I JUST WENT OUT WITH HIM BECAUSE HE KNEW U!!!!! AND HE WAS ALL OK OK THATS ALL I WANTED TO KNOW. SO THE REST OF THE TIME AT AB'S HE JUST COMPLETELY IGNORED ME AND WAS ONLY TALKING TO LIZ. SO THEN ASHTON COMES OUT ON TV AND I AM ALL AWWWWW ASHTON AND JOE WAS ALL I THINK TARA REED IS HOT AND GERMAN WAS ALL NO SHE ISNT SHANNON ELIZABTH IS AND SO THEY JUST CONTINUED TALKIN ABOUT THAT. (OK REMEBER THIS PART CUZ IT COMES UP LATER) SO THEN WE DECIDE TO LEAVE AND WE GET IN MY TRUCK AND HE ISNT TALKIN AT ALL THEN FINALLY HE SAYS "THIS IS WEIRD" SO I WAS ALL WELL THEN TALK TO ME AN HE WAS ALL WELL WHAT DO U WANT ME TO SAY AND I WAS ALL I DONT CARE JUST TALK TO ME. SO BY THIS POINT I DONT EVEN CARE CUZ I AM ALL PISSED OFF. SO WE GET TO HIS HOUSE AND HE KEEPS SAYING THAT EVERYTHING IS WEIRD NOW SO I WAS ALL WELL THEN TALK TO ME! AND HE WAS ALL WELL WHAT DO U WANT ME TO SAY! AND THEN HE SAYS OK FINE U WANNA TALK LETS TALK AND JUST GET EVERYTHING OUT IN THE OPEN! NOW!AND I WAS ALL OH WO WO!!! SO BY THIS TIME HE IS BACK TO YELLING AT ME AGAIN BUT ALL UGLY STYLE THIS TIME. SO HE TELLS ME " OK LETS TALK ABOUT THIS CUZ WHATS GOING ON RIGHT NOW IS THE SAME SHIT THAT HAS HAPPEND IN MY PAT RELATIONSHIPS AND I DONT WANT THISTO HAPPEN AGAIN!" AND I WAS ALL OK WHAT? AND HE WAS ALL I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND WHY GIRLS HAVE TO SAY STUPID SHIT THAT GETS THEM IN TROUBLE! AND I WAS ALL EXCUSE ME??? AND HE WAS ALL "WELLLIKE WHY DID U HAVE TO TELL ME THAT ABOUT U AND DENISE NOT LIKING EACHOTHER BECAUSE OF MARCO. I LIKE DENISE,SHE HAS ALWAYS BEEN COOL WITH ME AND NOW THAT I KNOW SHE DOESNT LIKE U ITS GOING TO MAKE THING WEIRD EVERYTIME WE GO TO AB'S." HE WAS ALL " NOW I AM ALWAYS GONNA FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE AND THERE WAS NO REASON FOR U SAYING THAT." THEN I WAS ALL WELL I AM SORRY BUT I AM AN OPEN PERSON AND I I LIKE TO BE OPEN WITH OTHER POEPLE INCLUDING U. I TRUST UAND I THOUGHT THAT I COULD TALK TO U ABOUT NE THIGN BUT I GUESS NOT! AND HE WAS ALL WELL U NEED TO LEARN THAT SOMETIMES U JUST NEED TO KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT!AND I YELLED "EXCUSE ME WHAT!" AND HE WAS ALL FINE U WANNA BE OPEN FINE WE'LL BE OPEN BUT LETS JUST SEE IF U CAN HANDLE IT WHEN I AM OPEN WITH U! AND I WAS ALL OK WHAT DO U MEAN GIVE ME AN EXAMPLE AND HE WAS ALL OK LIKE IN MY PAST RELATIONSHIPS WHEN WE GO TO THE MOVIES AND I SEE SHANNON ELIZABETH AND I'M ALL DAMN SHES FUCKING HOT, TELL ME WOULD U NOT GET OFFENDED BY THAT? AND I WAS ALL AH NO!!!! WHY WOULD I! IN THE FIRST PLACE U ARE NEVER GONNA GET HER SO WHY THE HELL AM GONNA WORRY ABOUT SOMETHING THAT IS NEVER GONNA HAPPEN!!!!!! AND IN THE SECOND PLACE U ARE OBVIOUSLY WITH ME FOR A REASON BECAUSE U LIKE ME SO WHY THE HELL SHOULD ICARE IF U SAY THAT. AND HE WAS ALL WELL BECAUSE I THINK SHE IS BEAUTIFUL AND THAT IS MY DREAM GIRL AND U LOOK NOTHING LIKE HER. AND I WAS ALL OH MY GOD GERMAN SHE IS A MOVIE STAR!!!!! WHO THE FUCK CARES IF U THINK SHES HOT OR NOT!!!! I DONT CARE IF U LIKE HER AND I LOOK NOTHIN LIKE HER BECAUSE U ARE NEVER GONNA BE WITH HER NE WAY SO WHY SHOULD I STRESS OVER SOMETHIN THAT IS NEVER GONNA HAPPEN!!!!!!!! AND I WAS ALL DO U GET OFFENDED WHEN I TALK ABOUT ASHTON, DAVE, OR VIN ? AND HE WAS ALL NO AND I WAS ALL WELL THEN WHY THE HELL WOUL I??? AND HE WAS ALL OK WELL I JUST THINK ITS DISRESPECTFUL, I MEAN EVERYTIME THEY COME OUT YOUR ALWAYS LIKE AWWW ASHTON OR WHOEVER AND I JUST FEEL LIKE SAYING OK ALREADY WHY DONT U JUST THROW YOURSELF AT THEM!!!!! LOL!!!!! OH MY GOD I STARTED LAUGHING WHEN HE SAID THAT!!!! THAT IS THE STUPIDEST THING I HAVE EVER HEARD!!!!! DONT UGUYS THINK!!!!! SO NE WAY I WAS ALL OK I'M SORRY I WONT DO THAT NE MORE AND HE WAS ALL NO CUZ I DONT WANT U TO CHANGE FOR ME. I AM NOT TRYINGTO CHANGE U AND I NEVER WANT U TO TRY AND CHANGE ME. SO WHEN HE SAID THAT OH MAN IT PISSED ME OFF AND I STARTED YELLING BACK AND I WAS ALL U KNOW WHAT U DONT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT ME TRYING TO CHANGE U BECAUSE I LET U KNOW THAT FROM THE BEGINNING THAT I WAS NOT LIKE THAT!!!!! I AM WHO I AM AND WETHER U LIKE IT OR NOT THATS WHO I AM ALWAYS GONNA BE AND I WILL NEVER CHANGE FOR NE ONE AND IN THAT SAME RESPECT I WILL NEVER TRY AND CHANGE NE ONE ELSE BECAUSE WHEN I LIKE SOMEONE I LIKE THEM FOR WHOM THEY ARE AND WHEN SOME ONE LIKES ME THEY ARE GONNA LIKE ME FOR WHO I AM SO U DONT EVER HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT THAT WITH ME! AND HE WAS ALL OK OK .SO AFTER I SAID THAT HE WAS HE DIDNT WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT NE MORE SO HE PUT HIS HEAD ON MY SHOLDER AND OUT OF NOWHERE HE WAS ALL "I'M MAD!" AND HE GETS UP AND I AM LIKE AHHHHH GREAT WHY R U MAD???? AND HE WAS ALL I DON KNOW I AM JUT REALLY PISSED OFF!!!! I FEEL SO ANGRY INSIDE LIKE I WANNA KICK SOMEONES ASS REALLY BAD!!!! AND I WAS ALL OK DID I MAKE U FEEL THIS WAY? AND HE WAS ALL NO I JUST DO. THEN HE JUST GRABBED MY FACE AND STARTED KISSING MY ALL CRAZY MAD STYLE. HE WAS KISSNG ME REALLY HARD!!! IT SCARED ME! NOW THAT WAS FREAKY!!!! AND NOT IN A GOOD WAY. SO AFTER THAT I WAS ALL OK AND HE WAS ALL WHAT WHATS WRONG WITH U ADN I WAS ALL WELL WHAT DO U THINK I FEEL LIKE SHIT GERMAN AND HE WAS ALL WHY AND I WAS ALL I JUST FEEL LIKE I FUCKED EVERYTHIG UPFOR US AND HE WAS ALL NO U DIDNT ANDI WAS ALL DO STILL LIKE ME AND HE WAS ALL YEAH A LITTLE BIT AND THEN HE GOES OK I HAVE TO GO NOW I'M TIRED. AND HE GETS OUT OF THE TRUCK ANDI WAS ALL WHAT THE FUCK SO I WAS ALL GERMAN WAIT SO I GET HIS CD OUT AND I WAS HERE U FORGOT YOUR CD AND BY THID TIME HE WAS ON MY SIDE AND HE WAS ALL NO I DONT WNT IT ANDI WAS ALL OK WELL ITS YOUR CD, AND HE WAS ALL NO I DONT WANT IT IF U GIVE IT TO ME I AM GOING TO THROW IT AWAy! SO I WAS ALL OK (WEIRDO!)SO I WAS ALL SO U DONT LIKE ME NE MORE AND HE WAS ALL GOD DAINELLE I WAS JUST PLAYING ANDI WAS ALL NO U WERENT U AINT GOTTA LIE TO KICK IT! SO HE WAS ALL AHHH WHATS WRONG WITH U!!!! SO AFTER THAT I STARTED CRYING CUZ I FELT LIKE SHIT AND HE WAS ALL NO STOP CRYING JUST FORGET EVERYTHING I SAID AND I WAS ALL WHATEVER I'LL LET U GO. SO I LEFT. SO I CRIED FOR A LITTLE BIT AND THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN IJUST GOT REALLY PISSDED AND STAYED PISSED EVEN UNTILL THE NEXT DAY.THEN THE NEXT DAY I TALKED TO MY MOM ABOUT IT AND I TOLD HER HOW I WASN'T EVEN SAD ABOUT WHAT HAD HAPPEND AND SHE SAID THAT THE REASON I WAS SO MAD WAS BECAUSE I REALLY LIKE HIM AND THAT I WAS REALLY JUST SCARED BECAUSE I THOUGHT THAT HE WAS GONNA BREAK UP WITH ME AND THAT I WAS JUST TRYING TO BE MAD SO THAT I WOULDNT BE SO HURT. GOSH SHE IS SO SMART BECAUSE THAT WAS EXACTLY THE REASON! IN EVERY RELATIONSHIP THAT I HAVE BEEN IN I HAVE ALWAYS GONE INTO IT NOT BEONG HAPPY AND JUST ALWAYS WAITING FOR THE BREAK UP NOT EVEN LETTING MY SELF BE HAPPY. BUT THIS TIME I COMPLETELY WENT INTO THIS RELATIONSHIP BEING HAPPY AND NOT EVEN THINKG ABOUT THAT. AND WHEN THIS HAPPEND IT COMPLETELY BROUGHT ME BCK O SQUARE ONE. SO MY MOM TOLD ME TO SNAP OUT OF IT BECAUSE THIS RELATIONSHIP HAD POTENTIAL AND SHE DIDNT WANT TO SEE IT GO DOWN THE DRAIN BECAUSE OF SOME STUPID FIGHT. WOW! MY MOM HAS NEVER SAID THAT BEFORE! SO I TOOKTHAT AS A HUGE SIGN AND I DID EXACTLY WAHT SE SAID.SO NOW EVERYTHING IS BACK TONORAML BETWEEN GERMAN AND I, WELL HE 'S DEPRESSED AND HE REFUSES TO TELL ME WHY BUT HE SAID ITS NOTHIN THAT I HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT WHICH IS WEIRD BECAUSE HE SAID PART OF IT HAS TO DO WITH ME BUT THAT THERE I NOTHIN THAT I HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT- IT REALLY DOESNT MAKE SENSE TO ME BUT WHATEVER I AM NOT EVEN GONNA CONCERN MYSELF WITH THAT! SO HOPEFULLY EVERYTHING CONTINUS TO GO GREAT CUZ I HAVE A FEELING ABOUT THIS ONE GUYS (EVEN THOUGH HE IS A LITTLE CRAZY!) SO I WILL START TOMORROW OFF AS A NEW DAY AND BE GREATFUL TO GOD FOR ALL THE BLESSINGS IN MY LIFE AND I WILL NOT DWELL ON THE PAST BECAUSE WELL FUCK IT RIGHT ITS ALREADY OVER AND DONE WITH! SHIT HAPPENS!