Sep 20, 2005 21:37
They should train their minds and keep them broad as the earth, unlimited as the sky, deep as a big river and soft as well-tanned leather.
Even if your enemy catches and tortures you, if you feel resentment, you are not following the Buddha's teachings. Under every circumstance you should learn to think: "My mind is unshakable. Words of hatred and anger shall not pass my lips. I will surround my enemy with thoughts of sympathy and pity that flow out from a mind filled with compassion for all sentient life".
Excript from The Teaching of Buddha (With thanks to Bukkyo Dendo Kyokai)
I am sad today. I was sad yesterday. I will continue to be sad tomorrow. I am sad not because of what happens to me, but because of what happens to Samantha. I wish I could tell more, but she has not told me anything either. I just know she hurts somewhere and it causes me to hurt. I would like to make all of this pain go away.
Maybe I am just failing her. Maybe the god thinks it is cute to have "Happiness Is a Warm Gun" play just as I am questioning my own value. It is not.
I'm glad Kasey is happy, in love with Jovane and almost guaranteed to marry him and take his babies. They can move to Missouri and help populate the Baptist Triangle and live a cool life. The problem is me and Kasey work in tandem...when she hits a high I hit a low. When she hits a low, I hit a high. So if she gets this life, I may as well give up. Granted, I would suffer anything on the behalf of my friends, but for a lifetime...
I have 1007 songs on my computer at this point, and Samantha has my entire Smashing Pumpkins collection right now, so when those get back I shall be pushing 1100. This volume of music would have crippled my other computer. Insha'allah, it shall not cripple this one.