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The one person that I could talk to, like REALLY talk to won't talk to me. Hmm..guess I was wrong...maybe I couldn't really talk to her. She said that we could talk whenver and wherever that she would always be there for me. She's not anymore. Everyone else moved on a left me alone a long time ago but she was still there up until the middle of Jan. Now she's given up too and it's just me. And I've been alone for a while but I never really thought that I was totally by myself. Not until now. This just kinda sillitfies everything. I hate it. It almost makes me afraid of my self. She was always able to talk me out of doing stupid things. Now who's gonna do that? I over analize everything and it drives me crazy I used to have a sounding board, confident, friend, mentor, hero...it's just me now....left alone....she promised that I would never be alone....fucking liar!!!